Yuexuan's Blog :[

I understand

2009-11-16T08:07:00.000-08:00

You like to do whatever you like without thinking about me then stop fucking act like you am the victim .
You can do whatever you want without thinking about me then I must always spare a fucking thought for you , It's not fair .
Everything you do , did you ever think that I will be angry with it , No you dont .

Because once you cry I will forgive me . & Now it doesnt work anymore .
I had enough of everything & You should know what you mean .

Yes I do .
It's always about me . Sorry .

Hopelessly Devoted to You

2009-11-16T07:47:00.001-08:00

Guess mine is not the first heart broken,
My eyes are not the first to cry
I'm not the first to know, there's just no gettin' over you

Hello, I'm just a fool who's willing to sit around and wait for you
But baby can't you see, there's nothin' else for me to do
I'm hopelessly devoted to you

But now there's nowhere to hide, since you pushed my love aside
I'm not in my head, hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you, hopelessly devoted to you

My head is saying "fool, forget him"
My heart is saying "don't let go"
Hold on to the end, that's what I intend to do
I'm hopelessly devoted to you

But now there's nowhere to hide, since you pushed my love aside
I'm not in my head, hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you, hopelessly devoted to you

Words

2009-11-05T03:29:00.000-08:00

Shot right at my heart .
You .

Mugging Time

2009-10-29T11:55:00.000-07:00

Tmr is the last lesson for my Dip term 1 , after that it's two weeks of study break then 1 week of exams .
I'm feeling a sense of fright whenever exams get nearer . Guess its my punishment for always not committing to class 100% . Laughs . I'm guilty .

I can't wait for Halloween to come . First , I've gotta think of what to wear . Make up and props have been decided . Hope everything will go smoothly for my 1st Halloween celebration . Maybe Singapore should make Halloween a big event ( Can we have a Public Holiday ?! ) Lols . C:

Girls , let's gather at my place on Saturday afternoon ? For catching ups & preparation for Halloween night ? Pls make this happen ! It's been so long since we last had our girls gossip sessions !!!!!! :( I miss all my girls . Esp Ang Wee Nah ....

Assignments

2009-09-27T12:11:00.000-07:00

This is really killing me , I've tons of assignments to do & summit tmr .
I can seriously die just like this . I've no freaking idea where to start and how to end .
Saveeeeeeeee me !

I'm at Dearest place right now , howwww to do my assignment ! His bro's com has no mircosoft words . CHOKE , GG lo .
:D
Sleep early and deal with it tmr at school .

Lazy piece of shit

2009-09-23T10:30:00.000-07:00

Oh , I've such a lazy bummer to update my blog . I'm considering whether to close it down or not . I'm not really the kind to come up to blogger everyday and write up things that happen . I just come to rant about my feelings whenever I feel like . Lol .

2 more days to my Mummy's Birthday , haha . She's holding a celebration on this coming Friday @ the Boiler room . I'm abit excited and thinking what I could wear . :D Teehee , this time my Dearest is gonna come along with me to Boiler . Last year's Bday he wasnt present . :)

Wei and daddy is back from Bangkok , I've loads of new stuffs to wear ! Woohoo , I cant wait for my trip to Bangkok too ! Dearest says if we managed to save up enough $$ , we might be flying off to bangkok during my Nov holidays ! Weeeeeeeuuweeet . Cant wait . I simply love Bangkok !

Looking at so many people's ROM/ Wedding / Babies pictures in FB starts to make me eager to get married . I hope Dearest is not reading , haha . This always stress him out . I find it soooo wonderful , marriage , babies , children . But not the part of getting old . Lol . Ahh , let my dreaming continue , dreams are free ! :)

Nights , tmr got school , many many I really mean Many assignments to handle . Hope I dont explode this time . :D Lucks ! Love my Baby Dearest . :)

Happy events

2009-09-07T06:03:00.000-07:00

Baby's gonig to POP on this coming wed , So excited . haha . Going to take hell loads of pictures .
Been so lazy to update , haha . so many events during the past few weeks . :D
Vennon Da Ge's 21st birthday , Bin kai's 19th Birthday , Dearest and me de 1 yr annivesary , Net's 19th birthday etc etc . Hahah !
Pictures can get from FB !

Happy 12mths Annivesary to me & my Dearest !
Cause 1st sept is on a tues & my Baby is in camp , we decided to celebrate on the weekend earlier on Sunday 30th Aug .We had a simple celebration , Movie of Final Destination 4 , dinner at Secret Recipe . Then dearest had to go book in & I went home .

Having lessons tmr , Loveeeeee school so much . Hope I'll do well for this term ! I'm thinking whether after completing my Dip should I continue studying or work and study later ? Thinking of learning music therapy or maybe apply to be Forensic Psy . :D

I want to go to Bangkok ,
I want to go for shopping spree ,
I want to buy DSLR ,
I want to own a shop ,
I want a driving license ,
I want to buy a car ,
I want to buy Chanel make up's .
I want i want i want ...
Zzz ... when can i fulfill all my wants !?

Lady Love (:

2009-08-25T00:31:00.000-07:00

(: (: (:

Baby Dearest is going to POP on 9th Sept , YAY ! Can't wait to be there to see him POP . I'll be so proud of him & so happy for him . I'll take loads of pictures , provided that I can borrow my cam from wei . :D So excited ! Lols .
School started alr , It's my Dip term alr . I promised myself that I'll study real hard , no more skipping of lesson , no more extreme lateness , no more late hand ups of essays/presentations . I must do well for my Dip so I can go for a Degree straight . No need to go thru adv dip . :D Aim high get high .
Omg , I'm so in the mood for shopping la ! haha . So many new shopping centres open up , Ion , Central etc . Haha . Anyway , on the 1at of this coming sept , It's Dearest & mine de 1st year anniversary . I really have no freaking idea what to get for him . Hmm ... any suggestions ?

Here are some pics that were taken during the weekends . (:

Changi hospital

Dearest going to see specialist (:

Waiting for Dearest to come fetch me

Miny Baby (:

Silly Bimbo

2009-08-07T00:13:00.000-07:00

Hi good afternoon , I really have to talk about this girl from MDIS . She's studying Business Management course . Yet , I would like to ask her . Ms E. Do you even know what's the true meaning of Harass ? Do you know what Slut means ?

According to Longman Dictionary of Contemporary ENGLISH , ( if you know what English is )

Harass : 1) to treat someone unfairly by threatening them or being continuously unpleasant to them . 2) to annoy someone by continually interrupting them . 3) to continually attack an enemy .

Slut : 1) an offensive word for a woman who has had many sexual partners . 2) an offensive word for a lazy untidy woman .

So may I ask you now , What were you referring to when you scold someone SLUT or claims that someone is harassing a guy ? I forgive you for your low knowledge in English or slow functioning brain . Did you lose your brain on the day you hurt your arm ? Did it fall out of place during the accident of yours ?

I do not understand how come a person of such age still behaves like a small kid , I believe that you might be intellectually disabled . Maybe you should come & visit me sometime , I may not be a professional psychiatrist but at least I've learnt the basic skills to identify someone diagnose with personality disorder .
I conclude that you have the following personality disorder :
1) Paraniod Disorder
- Distrust and Suspicion of others
- Believing that others are trying to harm them
- Easily jealous , Overly sensitive

2) Sociopathic Disorder
- Disregard for others
- Aggressive , violent behaviour

3) Avoidant Disorder
- Social isolation
- Hypersensitivity to criticism or rejection
(Oh-so-true)

Thanks to you , I put my studies to good use . (: I wouldn't bother to explain futher , you wouldn't understand anyway . Still I would like to request you to unblock your blog , Cause if you are daring enough to write about others in your blog than you have nothing to fear for people reading your blog . Dont be such a coward . ( someonewho is not at all brave ) Stand out and speak ! Stop being a keyboard warrior ! I hope you understand what I just typed . Please be wise , read up before you accuse anyone with wrong words . Lastly , I seriously hope you will suffer as long as you live .
BITCH .

Insane Bullshits

2009-08-02T10:53:00.000-07:00

I am seriously going bonkers . I miss TCS so fucking much . It's only been the 3rd day of his outfield and I cant take it anymore . I miss him everywhere I go and whatever I do , time just passes sooooooo slowly I just feel so angered by everything . Why cant time go on faster !!!

I dont even feel like writing the Journal for him , cause I just wished that I could tell him how my days went face to face NOW . I missed his hugs , kisses , cold jokes , laughter etc .

I would wonder everyday ,

How is he doing ?

Have he eated yet ?

Is ration food very bad ?

Did he starve himself cause the ration sucks ?

Can he sleep well ?

Is he frustrated because he cant bathe ?

Did insects bite him badly ?

Did he hurt himself during training ?

How is the weather over at tekong ?

Did he catch flu or get heat stroke ?

I AM SO F-ING WORRIEDDDDDD ):

Every night I try to sleep early I miss him again and leads to me not sleeping till the day breaks . SHIT

It's not good that we're so attached to each other , still I like being so glue-ish to my Dearest TCS ! :D

OH MY GODDDDDDD , I'm gonna force myself to bed soon , tmr is another working day for me . Thank goodness I had a job , it helps to pass my time faster for 3 hours . -.-

Good night , Love you Dearest .

Outfield = Nuts

2009-07-30T22:50:00.000-07:00

MY DEAREST IS GONE FOR OUTFIELD !

Gone for 8 days with no phone . sob ! I wished i was small enough for him to put me into his field pack & we can go tekong tgt ! haha ! Missed my dearest sssssooooooooo much . Wont be seeing him this weekend , he'll be back only next friday . haha . Cant wait .

BTW
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO COUSSIE DEXTER CHIA ! LOVES !
&
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DAVID HEE . :)

Heartfelt

2009-07-16T12:06:00.000-07:00

YAY , I've finished my 1st paper for this module . My History of Psychology paper was alright . I believe I would have done much better if I did mug harder for it . ): Acutally I did much revision on the few days before this paper but I always get so nervous when I enter the exam room . & POOOF ! I forget most of it . Haha !

My Deepest Condolences to Evon's Family
Evon's Grandfather passed away few days ago , we've been over at the funeral on tues & wed nights . Had quite a hell of a time though . Loads of girl talks and mahjong sessions ! haha . Quite a pity we always went late and missed Net . haha ! Miss Net & the crazy talking sessions , she's off to Bangkok !

I Wanna go Bangkok toooooo ! ):

Brief update ,
Dog Shelter Volunteery work with Siuyi & Wei
Town makeover for coussie Celine with Siuyi & Wei
Escape , Ice Age III with Dearest , Wei & Mummy
Boat Quay with Dearest & friends
Town for movies and shopping with Dearest & friends
Swimming sessions at Siuyi's place with Wei
Eden's farewell to army dinner at Katong
Slacking & durian at fitness corner ! with Evan & Wei
Over to Evon's Grandfather's funeral
Lols , hope i didnt miss out anything .

My Dearest is booking out tmr morning because he need to see specialist for his injured knee ! Yay , we're meeting for breakfast . However , he needs to book in at 2.30pm in the afternoon & can only book out on Saturday ! Sadness ! We actually planned to go Dbl O tmr night with my girls & now all the plan has failed ..... It alright though , I still have Saturday night , considering about going to Boiler with my girls too . :D Can't wait to see Dearest tmr . Yay-ness !

My lovely girls , it's been a rough time recently for both Weenah & Evan . I just wish to say that no matter what happens , I'll always be here standing right beside you two . Though we might not be staying tgt 24/7 but do remember that I am only a phone call away . Sorry to my babe Weenah , I was in deep sleep & I wasn't able to answer your call the other day . Won't make this mistake again , my promise to alllllll my girls alright ! No need to say thank you or feel paiseh , once again I would say , this is what Sister's are for . In my entire life , you 3 girls , Weenah , Evan & Wei would be my only and most trusted sisters . I love you all . If the path ahead of you is filled with many rocks , let me be your strong boots to protect your feet . We'll walk down this rocky path tgt alright ! Be strong & cheer up :)

Anyway , pictures of recent :

Night before my paper ! Chicken Essence :D

Was Bored :s Lawls

Cookie Monster = LOVE

My Precious Baby Miny :)
Dearest & I took Neoprints :D
Love to the max ! Hees .

Off to bed :D Nights allllll .

Exams drive me crazy

2009-07-13T04:47:00.000-07:00

Exams on wed ! Spell O.M.G for me .
Rushing on my revision tonighttt , god god god . LOL

I'm too lazy to update , my apologies . will try to update after my exams . :D

I have sudden craving for cupcakessssssss
p/s : I Miss TCS (:

L.O.V.E

2009-06-24T22:39:00.000-07:00

There's only 1 thing, 2 do, 3 words, 4 you. I love you (:

Tmr is going to be the big day . My dearest TCS is booking out at 8pm ! Finally after 2 hard to endure weeks ! Almost died without my Dearest around . & those irritating short phone calling times . Teehees . I MADE IT ! I deserve to be rewarded with a HUGE hug and a BIG kiss . (:

I miss TCS so much ! I'm so glad I found you , I love being around youuuuuuuuu .
Gonna pick him up tmr . Who wanna come along ? Lol .
I'm going to surprise him with my scrappy tmr . I made a scrappy with most of our pics for him to bring in to camp . If not he does not have any pics of us at all . Also can be our anniversary gift. :D

Going to bathe & rush off to school soon . (: So excited for tmr , hopefully today time will hurry by . :D

Love you love you love you . Tan Chee Sheng . See you tmr :D

Shitttttttt

2009-06-14T13:49:00.000-07:00

Okay , I killed 2 baby lizards this morning . ):

I didnt do it on purpose alright ! the 2 eggs just fell out from the bamboo stick while I was taking my clothes . I'm so sorry . I didnt know they were inside there . It made me feel like puking anyway . Eww ..

Change of topic ,

MY DEAREST HAS BEEN ENLISTED ON FRIDAY 12 JUNE TO 41 SAR AT KRANJI CAMP!!!! ):

So so so so so sad , I miss him soooooooo much . Everyday missing him . Even his buddies starting to miss him . Xiang hui told me that he felt so odd without TCS around , like not kp anymore . Lol ! :D Baby boy did manage to call me for very short while every night . Wish our chats would last longer la ! 13 more days & my Dearest will be able to book out alr ! Counting down the days . Wooooweeeeeeeee ....

Had been working at IT show on sat & sun . Very very very tiring . I was selling Hard disk for Seagate . 2 days from 11-9.30 breaks not much but still alright la . Working with a bunch of great peeps . I'm so freaking tired and yet I've to stay up just to do my presentation for tmr lor ! Was home around 1am after eating and slacking with Nicholas , Evan , Xiang Hui & KeeLin . Didnt really managed to concentrate on doing my ppt. haha , fooled around with my webcam and writing journal for my Dearest to see . :D

Now it's almost 5, & FINALLY i'm done with the ppt slides ! YAY ~ but I still have 3 essays to hand in by this coming week . Sucks totally . Stupid wei is going KL with my coussies and aunt tmr for 3 day . WORST , i cant go cause i have presentation tmr . Spell F u c k . ):

Off to bed soon , Nightys

Oh , I miss you so . Love love love love love youuuuuu :D

2009-06-05T09:58:00.000-07:00

Dont know why .
Dont want to know why .
Like wei said , too much to handle
Too much stress to take .

I have 3 assignments due in 2 weeks time and I have no f.u.c.k.i.n.g idea how to doooooo !!!!
Fuck this . _l_

Everything just suck big time .
6 more days and you just dont understand . Or should I say you STILL dont understand .
All my effort wasted .
Like a fed up bodoh

IMY . How are you ? Sunshine

2009-05-31T11:54:00.000-07:00

Exams are over !
I believe I've done pretty well for both exams . Hope I can get A's for both subjects . I'll get my results only after 2 months . So bloodly long la . -.- Anyway , 2nd Term of school starts tmr afternoon and at this time I am still blogging .
Long time since I last updated .

Life of many seems complicating and messed up right now , I just wish that those who are feeling happy right now keeps things that way . & those who are bad will feel better soon .
When will everything be over ?
I can only say soon . Some take longer time , some takes shorter time . Some dont even know how . So soon is the correct word . Let all the unhappy souls heal up together alright ? I know we all can as long as we want to . Cheer up and lets heal heal heal up .

I'm very sorry to my girls that I've not be around & sometimes I've been a wet blanket . I may not be there 24/7 but always know that I'm just a phone call away . Anytime you need someone to talk to , I'll be here to be a listening ear , a shoulder to cry on . Please promise me that any one of you wont do silly things , we've been thru so much . We are not that weak . I've made my promise that I wont leave you girls at the time that you all needed me most , so now . Promise me that you girls wont leave me in my time of need now too . You know I've and will always love , care and feel for you girls . Weenah , Evan , Wei . My dear girls thank you for being there for me as well . Let me have this chance to be here for you all too . No matter what , we'll always be together . Till the end of our lives okay ? Y

For myself , things are looking much better right now . Still I dont feel so good yet .
I never want to forget or replace . I want to rememeber for the rest of my life . This sin I've made will follow me for the rest of my life , or even till I'm gone . Stop telling me to forget and move on . I will get better but I dont want to move on and forget about it all . What's done cannot be undone . However , what has happen cannot/should not be forgotten .

Come back to me .

2009-05-24T01:59:00.000-07:00

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing .

When a heart breaks no it dont break even, no it dont break even .
What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you ?
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and he's OK ?
I'm falling to pieces .

Teach me how to go on ? What have I left to keep myself going ?
I've having nightmares since the 18th . But no , I've yet to dream of Sunshine .
I'm sorry but no amount of wise words can stop my bleeding .
I'm trying to convince myself of the remains .
The little remains hardly make sense .
I miss my Sunshine , the gift from heaven . The act of nature .
I change the fate of someone else life . I'm selfish , I'm not strong .

I deserved to be hanged just like any other murderer .

2009-04-27T08:15:00.000-07:00

Well , today's class was not so bad . All of us are getting to know each other more & has become better friends . (: hope there wont be any of those 'politics' happening . Mr Singh told us to write a journal for each of our lessons about what we've learnt for the day , I'm thinking of buying a new nice notebook again ! Hee hee .
Didnt concentrate well anyway , was not feeling very well for the past few days . Blame it on the weather . I did promise to post up some pictures but very sorry I was sick so I didnt have the time , promise to do it soon alright ! :D
Am at Katong right now , Dear & friends are playing L4D . I've been playing too often that I feel like vomiting at the look of it now , haha ! I'm too bored , haha .

Hi Dear dear , you are right beside me & pls dont peep now , you can read later !
I've been rather sickly this few weeks , Thank you my dearest Tan Chee Sheng for looking after me . Thank you for tolerating my bad temper , yelling & comanding .I now I'm hard to handle when I'm having mood swings but sincerely I'm sorry . You complain that I dont write about you in my blog not cause I dont love you It's just that sometimes i'm very lazy to blog . Things may be in a mess right now but everything will be solved soon alright ! So dont keep playing L4D okay ?! I want to go home & rest !!! LOL . Dear I Love You . Muacks ! :D Y

2009-04-21T02:18:00.000-07:00

Alright , i know i have left this blog to rot too long , but just that there have been too many pics to update ! Lol
Anyway , I've started my lessons on Psychology at MDIS alr . 20th april was my 1st lesson , was rather worried at first . But I guess its not too bad , quite interesting . I made quite a few friends . my class has only around 20+ peeps and only 3 guys . LOL !
I enjoy my class cause most of them are alright , and my Lecturer Mr Amir Singh is the head of Psychology in MDIS & he's gooooooooood . We did alot of interaction with everyone and its a MUST to talk alot , lols . I'm lovin it . Teehees .
Well , there are alot ( & I really mean ALOT ) of overdue pictures that I havent uploaded yet , but I should do that tmr morning before I go to school . (:
Going for a swim at Shawn's condo right now . Check out the pictures for Evan's bday , My Bday , Zoo trip and blah blah la , haha .
Seeya !

2009-03-30T11:31:00.000-07:00

I'm blogging again , Shit .
But right now I feel so confused at myself . What's wrong with me ? I get frustrated easily and I throw trantrums at my friends easily . I dont know what I want . I can't do anything right .
What is going on ?! Everything keeps changing . I do not know if what I think or do is right or wrong . Or isit even what I really want !?
Did I confused my feelings with anger ?
Did I mixed up right from wrong ?
Did I made alot of hasty decisions ?
Did I hurt anyone ?
Or did I even hurt myself ?
Am I thinking too much again . I cant even predict myself . I feel so pissed with the whole world , my heart doesnt feel so well either .
It's like as if I have lost the best of both worlds .

Have I mistaken my feelings of the of our past for the present ?

He is not totally what I want ,
But then ,
HE is not HE who used to be .

Can anyone tell me what's wrong with me ??
I am not happy with myself , _l_

2009-03-30T02:54:00.000-07:00

Left 4 Dead L4D Left 4 Dead !

Omg , I'm like so addicited to this freaking game right now . haha ! Lan-ing anyone ? Dwl-ed it on my computer and lappy today . (: Gonna play it with Marcus and wei wei later on . :D
Evan & Weenah ! When are we gonna go lan L4D tgt ?! haha .

It kills time okay ! Gonna be away for fews days at chalet . Evan's Bday is coming on this coming 1st . Shall publish a post for her soon ! Hehs .

Post up some old photos that seems rather nice . :[

You promised me I could be your queen and you’d be my king
You promised me a white wedding dress, where is the ring?
You promised me your tender caress your kisses at night
So try to show it wasn’t in vein coz I’m wasting my time
You promised me
Just me and you .

Off to L4D . :D

Baby dont cry . I'm sorry . Take care of yourself . Thanks for everything that you'd given me . I've never taken you as his sub . I really wanted to be with you , I admit I still have feelings for him but I dont want to hurt you . Sorry . I'll miss you , be happy .

2009-03-26T05:00:00.000-07:00

It'll always be us . My loves

You girls are most important to me . haha , that pic was taken quite a long time at Dbl O . just find it nice so post it . lols .

I dont know what I'm going thru right now . I really dont know . I think everything is no longer the same anymore . everything change .

2009-03-25T04:55:00.000-07:00

You're all just like family . LiveWire Y

You spin my head right round , Right round ~

When You go down , When you go down down ~

I miss my nightlife !

I wanna be the party animal i used to be ! ):

& Tonight It's Powerhouse finally , Tgt with my ladies we're gonna rock the place down !

I promise loads of photos !

So sorry my girls for always missing out on our 'Dates' but you must know

I really miss and love you bitches like truck loads alright !

I love you peeps too !

Cute Iris ! Tong Xiang ~ :D

Lucky nicholas . Happy 19th !

Desmond , My boss , My 'father'

Gonna go get ready ! update soon . :D Y

P/s : I've got the flu bug ):

2009-03-08T10:31:00.000-07:00

I'm trying to hold on to my very last breath .

I dont want to talk about anything at all , I dont feel good right now .

I wish I had more time to think before it happened .

I am trying . No need for worrying , I AM fine .

I am nothing to you anymore .

Please dont pity me . cs

I'm sorry Shawn Tan .

& I hate you , or maybe all of you .

2009-02-18T19:59:00.001-08:00

Dear folks I am so sorry I haven been updating ! Haha .
Was soooo soooo busy with my work , this month is a really packed up week . every week i only had 1 off day la . forgive me ! haha .
I'm under much stress from my lousy sales numbers , so i'm gonna take a break at Sentosa this friday . Shall update more after my Sentosa trip . (:
Loves ppl please wait for me to be back okayyy .

Chaos , i'm gonna go work soon . (:

Hello , I miss you , Bye . :D

2009-01-21T01:48:00.000-08:00

I lost my mind .

Stress from work ! haha . CNY is coming in few days , today is my off day & i'm still not resting alot . Doing a hell loads of spring cleaning .

When I wake up everyday its like my stress level is adding . shag-ness . No one to blame , I love my tiring job too much . Guess it keeps me from my hu si luan xiang-ing .

Everyone thinks that I stress myself too much , yes I guess I should chill before I become like what evan said ' Crazy ' . (:

Where's the love that you promised ?

Somethings are best left as memories .

2009-01-15T20:57:00.000-08:00

I know my blog has been rotting , i was so busy working i hardly find time to update okay ! haha .

Updates ! Currently working as UOB credit card sales . Anyone wants a credit card ? call me okay ? :D Lols !

I can say so that i'm single , things are very very complicated wouldnt want to go into details . Dont ask me what happen , i wont bother to explain anymore . Work is more important now , building up my money sorce is soooooo important . I don't deny , money is very important to me . No money , no talk . LOLS ! I want cash in my pocket please . ):

I was rather pissed the other day . I got my fucking IT show pay cheque . I had to made 2 trips down to Funan cause some idiot told me my cheque would be there on Tuesday afternoon . I went down at 2pm and the lady told me there was no cheque with my name , I called the fella , fucked him upside down and he told me ' oh i told you it was afternoon ' , i replied ' 2pm not afternoon uh , then what morning ah . bullshit ' then he told me sorry they was in a meeting just now so now then they taking the cheque to Funan . I had to work in the afternoon so I decided to take it another day then . Took it ytd on my off day & was hoping to cash it out and go Chinatown to shop for new year goods & yes it was a fucking hell cross cheque . Bastard . & now i have to wait for monday before my cheque goes into my account .

I hereby self delcare that I AM BROKE ! ):

Anyway I went to Chinatown ytd to feel the CNY mood ! haha , i cant wait for CNY . New clothes , new shoes , Bak Gua ! ANG PAO ! last but not least GAMBLING ! haha !

Met up with my 13'1 & ang nah nah ytd took some pics with vennon Dage's apple lappy again , its funny but I post it after I get them .

1st Tattoo convenation in Singapore . I went on the last day . I tell you ! I SAW CHRIS GARNER ! OMG ! i took a photo with him ! and he was really nice . haha . we had a small chat while smoking outside . haha ! Took many photos there , tattoo's are so F.R.E.A.K.I.N.G COOOL ! looking at the others it makes me feel like improving my tattoos man ! If I can I would like to cover up my ugly fugly spider . ): I want a hiong hiong and pretty tattoo . Maybe I should have a full sleeve of tattoos ? HAHA !

Pics :

Happy CNY !

1st Tattoo Show Singapore ! :D

Fav piece , Taiwan .

Superb peacock tattoo : Singapore

This is my mad Friend's head .

My fav piece from his arm .

This is my mad friend Toh You Jian !

Chris Garner on the very right ! ARGHS !!!!

Daddy , Can i get this tattoo done ? I love the flowers .

End ! Enjoy ppl ! Today I'm sick , I lost my voice & tmr I'm gonna work again , AHH . Workaholic , Money money money .....

2008-12-21T23:28:00.000-08:00

What happen to the burning fire ?

I just want to be alone for awhile . Think about what the hell is going on . I cant do it . Stop this nonsense right now .

2008-12-11T05:24:00.000-08:00

Hello ! I am at Changi airport now !
I'm flying to Korea at 10pm .
I Will miss ANG WEENAH , EVAN TEO & TAN C HEE SHENG . ( Evan happy ? ) :D
Off to facebook ! Pls someone help me take care of my Pet Society Chika can ? ):

BYE BYE SINGAPORE ! (:
HELLO COLD COLD SNOWY KOREA ):

2008-12-09T07:42:00.000-08:00

So so so sorry for the late update ! haha . Been very busy recently .

Anyway ! Latest updates for now !

25th Nov

Happy Belated 18th Birthdayyyy To my babe/bitch ANG WEE NAH !

Finally you are in legal age ! We waited for this day for like sooo long . Tees . (: Love you loads babe .

Surprised her on 12midnight !

Made by Xuan , Wei , Evan & 13'1 (:

You'll always be my babe . Sisters till the end . (: LOVE YOU

& TMR We have another Birthday girl !

10th Dec

Happy 17th Birthday to Dear Girl Jiahui ! (: One more year to be legal ! haha .

We Celebrated Girl's birthday in advance cause 10th is on a wed & ma fan Girl is havin her common test . haha . Ate dinner at Villa Bali , went over to Powerhouse . Took quite hell loads of photos but she haven send me yet . (: Upload once i get the pics !

Girls for life ! (: LOVE YOU TOO !

I guess that's all . I'm flying off to Korea on the 11th which is like 1 more day . Taking my flight at 10pm . I'm so worried that it'll be super cold there la . First time I'm traveling to a country that snows . Pretty excited . (: I'll miss my girls & Dear dear most . ): & MINY ! she's staying at home & Mummy will be home to look after Miny . (: Alright . I will update when I get back . get ready to see a post full of pics ! (: Take care all ! :D

Happy 3rd Month (01.12.08) Take care dearest ! Behave yourself when I'm not around okay ? & Dont forget to miss me ! Y

Evan ! Help me LOOK after him ah ! :D Teehees ~

2008-11-23T08:14:00.000-08:00

I swear I can break someone's glass right now . I am freaking P-I-S-S-E-D !

Can I please kill someone ?

Idiot .

2008-11-20T03:18:00.000-08:00

After reading evan's blog I also reaslised how much I've miss my flute . I remember my passion in learning that instrument I've loved since young . Thinking back , it was pretty amazing how I convinced Mr Toh to not let me go back to french horn & let me learn playing the flute . I guess my liking of music has never left . In primary 2 after hearing a band performance in school , Wei & me decided we must join band . Yes there is alot commitment and time spent in practice & even when we're home we have to practice . I actually told myself that when I'm in secondary I cannot commit into uniform groups anymore & I swear I wanted to concentrate on my studies or somewhat do better in sports . Yet again after see-ing the wonderful CCHB band perform , I got hooked . & one whole group of us was madly in love . Weenah , Shuyi & Alinia in the Clarinets , I was the Flutist , Hilary the sexy-phonist . (: We were all crazy into band . Marching , always late for school never late for band , humming all the music during maths lessons , non stop talking about band band band . staying back in school to practice , etc.

& even after I left I always swear to myself that I MUST buy a flute in future .

Sankyo Flute , one of the most expensive flute in the world . I really must thank Mr Toh for this wonderful chance . This wonderful instrument is gold plated inside , cost at least 10K if i remember correctly & Sg has only 3 sets . Our school owns 2 . & I was really very lucky to get to be 1 of the player . It was my honor . Thank you Mr Toh . I can never ever forget the first touch of the Flute & the moment I played it , That feeling , was so so .. WOW . (: Still I will work towards my goal . One Sankyo Flute to purchase !

My Aussie cousin Dixon is back for holiday . All of us met up at 2nd Aunt's house ytd due to Dearest 2nd aunt birthday . Was talkin with dixon about his aussie life . & he is in uni now . he is in the same age as me . Somehow I have this urge to go over to Aussie to study . they have arts Uni there which is far more cheaper than NAFA , I dont need to stay in hostel I can stay at my Cousin's house , He can drive me to school . I only need to take 4 subjects there , not including english maths comb. science this bullshit , it will only take me 2 years . I can take up a part time job there to earn a living & the pay is bloodly hell two times more then sg , though the living expenses in high but still I earn more there than in Stupid SG . Really considering . I can take up a bank loan for overseas studying , Visa may be very tourblesome but it's fast la . I only need to figure out where in the hell to pay for Air tickets . & I still owe my mom 2K for the Korea air ticket . ): Anyway , I have 7 months to go think about it . might be going over to Aussie coussie house in June 2009 to check out all the stuffs . Hopefully I can study there . (:

2008-11-17T08:35:00.000-08:00

I really really really really really REALLY want to watch this movie ! ):

Anybody ? Dear ? ): ): ): ):

I like to move it move it ~

2008-11-12T02:33:00.000-08:00

LAST BUT NOT LEAST .
NOT FORGETTING OUR

COUPLE NUMBER 5 : JUN JUN & HUI HUI (another lao jiao )

Heh heh , Sorry uh girl . LOL you both is lao jiao already . ppl sian liaos , want see new couples ! LMAOs ! :x

POWERHOUSE TONIGHTTTTTT !!! Y

2008-11-11T01:40:00.000-08:00

Okay ! Pictures pictures uploading now ! (:

Saturday 1st Nov.
Towny with Dearest Girl Jiahui . Miss her so much !

Headed to Boat Quay after that . The next stop. so sad we didnt take much pictures . & saw our lovely 13'1 at boat quay too !

Friday 7th Nov - Boat Quay again , The Next Stop (:

This will be me , Singing . :DD

Headed back to bedok home & Zilian ! (:

MY cute Dear Dear :DD

Saturday 8th Nov - Towning & Prawing at Bishan !

Xiang hui and me showing off our catch !

Our catch ! 25 prawns in total , One ah gong prawn , one ah mah , two auntie prawns . (:

MY Champ catch ! Ah gong & auntie prawn ! (:

This is my ah gong prawn head ! WOO !! I caught 8 in total .

Yummy !

No make up ! :D

Introducing Our Couples !!!!!!!!!!!!

Couple 1 : Xuan xuan & Chee chee Y

Couple 2 : Van van & Kang kang :D

Couple 3 : Gan gan & Nah nah :p

Couple 4 : Wei wei & Joo joo (Lao Jiao )

Thats all ! update soooooon ! Loves ! Y

2008-11-11T01:06:00.000-08:00

Hello hello !
Please support Wei's blogshop !
She did it by herself ! (: SUPPORTS NEEDED !!!!!!!!!!!!
http://hotshopp.blogspot.com/

2008-11-07T04:26:00.000-08:00

I swear that once I have money I must go to this place !
I can sleep under the moolight here forever ! (:
Check this place out ! Its call Maldives , heard from weenah its somewhere below India . (:
LOVES !
Money come come come !!!

2008-10-31T12:08:00.000-07:00

update more pic ! Evan & wei is back !

2008-10-31T11:19:00.001-07:00

HAPPY HALLOWEEN ALL !

I'm home by myself being random , playing with my webcam . LOLs .

Random-ness . (:

I guess I'm gonna change my blog pic to this . (: Too bad , I love black and white .

Wink baby , Yeah baby (:

My insanity begans . (: Burning love .

Popcorn ? Anyone?

Crazy-ily in love with youuuuuuuu :DD

ARGHS SNOW !!!

just laugh at me ! (: I am JUST bored . Good night . Happy halloween again .

2008-10-30T14:11:00.000-07:00

Sometimes it just feels so cold . I'm feeling so not myself today .

Well , Good night .

那些爱过的感觉都太深刻我都还记得 .

2008-10-19T06:27:00.000-07:00

I Love You Like No One Else .

YES I'M BACK FROM GENTING !! ANYBODY MISS ME ??? Haha , went Genting with my Dear Tan Chee Sheng , Evan , Nicholas , Xiang hui , Shawn , Bin kai , Miao , Kiegan . Damn fun but some got sick halfway , haha . Went to the club over at Genting called Safari , not bad quite fun BUT Powerhouse is so much better . (: I LOVE POWERHOUSE MORE ! :D

Alright I'm gonna go get ready to meet my Bai Kah . Update the trip sooooooon . (:

PS: Lim Yue Xuan Love Tan Chee Sheng (:

2008-10-14T00:21:00.000-07:00

Sunny Flower I am

YAY ! I'm going genting tmr with Dear & friends . It means no clubbing for ladies night tmr ! ): Today is one lovely day other then the rainy day . ): I love sunflowers , they always look so cheerful ! Sunflowes make my day seriously . Lols !

Anyway , I'm going for an audit for a role in Vennon's short flim for his school project I guess . haha . Seriously I'm really excited , though it's not comfirm that I might get the role and it's a no pay assignment but really its going to be a GREAT expierence . Ha !
Just being bored , waiting for Evan to get ready to meet me & pei me go to the audi . I just downloaded Cooking Dash from Yahoo games , gonna go try it out . haha ! Update soon . (:

PS : I Love Bai Kah & I miss Jia Hui . ):

2008-10-11T23:50:00.000-07:00

Here are the pics I promised ! Enjoy folks (:

Lantern Festival . (:

Random ! :

All my lovelys , :D BarDot :

My Two Gege's (: Alex & Jason .

Ahlabu Louis ! (:

Ryan , Best buddy Wei Sheng . (:

Kee Lin Birthday : POWERHOUSE !

Gone birthday boy Haha ! HAPPY 18th ! (:

Lastly I shall end with Miny & Dusty ( Dear's dog ) :

This is Miny that is Dusty ! (:

This is Dusty That is Miny ! (:

PS : I Love Bai Kah (:

2008-09-29T01:36:00.000-07:00

Tonight I'm falling & I can't get up .

I need your loving hands to come & pick me up .

I've always loved the sky but now I have more reasons to love the sky . How it describes my feelings , somehow I feel that the sky can understand how I feel . When I feel gloomy the sky does too . when its a happy day , it's always sunny . Always , I mean it . like today , its a gloomy day . ): It's definetly a bad year of the Horses .

26 Sept

Happy Birthday to my Dearest Mommy !

Her birthday dinner as a family at Sakae Sushi & Crazy celebration at St James Boiler room ! lols ! Thanks alvin for helping her get a table . (: We were all so crazy ! haha . will post the pics ASAP when I get them . (:

Also ! Not forgetting ,

Happy 20th Birthday to Kenneth Chew ,

Thanks for your invite to Boat Quay for your celebration , sorry didnt come .

Who ask you to have the same birthday with my mom ! (: Hees ! Hope you enjoyed .

Happy 18th to Dear Sophia Lin !

haha , sorry I didnt call cause I losted your number . Dont worry . me & wei will never forget your birthday ! (:

Happy 19th to Wei Jie !

was at st james with my mom too . so sorry I forgot it was your birthday too . LOL ! but anyway I still remembered in the end ! (:

Happy Birthday to Jia Hui's mom !

Our mom's have the same birthday . so cute huh ! (: Have a wonderful birthday !

So many people have the same birthday . lols ! Weird huh . (: I'm so lazy to post pics . but i promise there will be one post all for pics alright . Gonna go play my Yahoo games . lols . Weenah & me like soooooooooo addicted !

& DONT FORGET , THIS WED LADIES NIGHT AT POWERHOUSE HAS BEEN CHANGED TO TUES CAUSE OF HARI RAYA ! (: Anyone wanna join me ? (: Signing out ! (:

Ps : I Love BaiKah (:

2008-09-25T03:58:00.000-07:00

5 Stars for this two movies . Super nice . Sky of Love , Love story and touching . Tears wont stop . (: Hiro & Mika , why doesn't this kinda things happen in real life .

Mamma Mia , 2 Thumbs up ! Funny & touching too . very nice show , should go catch it lor ! (:

Anyway , my dearest Di Brent's wife has given birth to a healthly loveable baby ! (: Kyo Pierre Ng . Grow up healthly uh ! (: I'm auntie again . haha . hope to visit them soon ! Take care Brent Di & MingHui . Though i dont know who you are but i believe you will be a good mother . (: Arghs , looking at so many ppl around me with baby , I dont deny that I want one too ! haha ! Seriously being a young mom is like sooooooo cool . Something that i really want to expierence . I know it's gonna be hard but I really want to be a young mummy ! (:

I've been so sick for 1 week already , bad cough & flu . & I ATE OREO . Omg ! oreo has the stupid China milk . God , why isit always China who do all these stunts . No wonder nobody wants to buy their product . I'm so lazy to blog recently , anyway , i'll try my best to update with photos soon ! (:

Bye , I'm gonna go meet my girls now . (: LOVES . BAIKAH ! (:

2008-09-05T03:22:00.000-07:00

How can I soar when I'm incomplete ?

I'm the world's most stupid person I guess . To believe that you could be the one & yet I was wrong . Even till the day that was your last chance to convince me back you had to pick up a fight with me . Why did I even agreed to go out with you , I could have just walked away . After all the things I gave up for you this is what I get in return . We couldn't even have a nice meal together . That was seriously the worst dinner I ever had . I dont deny that I do miss you still but I see no future anymore . Our problems will still haunt us in future . What should I do ? What Can I do ? Teach me how to get rid of you from my life ? You are everywhere ! Can't sleep can't eat, I can't stay at home , Living life without you is more than I can bear . I will learn eventually . There's no one who loves you like I do . Blame yourself for not treasuring my love .

Thank you for all these 8 months . thank you . I don't deny that there was happy moments spend with you . Thank you for being there for me when I was falling apart and guiding me to pick myself up. Take care of yourself . (:

Today's Conclusion : Treasure the people that you love , Don't take their sacrifaces for granted .

Song for the Day : Zhen Shi - Zhang Hui Mei

Tell me that you need me , Tell me that you care & I'll be there . I'll be there waiting .

2008-08-27T03:43:00.000-07:00

Yeah ! I changed my blog skin & photo ! Finally Credits to LIM YUE WEI ~ many loves Thank you !
Quarreled with Darling , it's gonna be ST JAMES tonight & I can't wait . (:
Shall not go into details about the quarrel I believe my ladies know already .

& seriously , Jia Hui is soooo cute compared to Wei . D:

Gonna help wei be model for her soon to come blogshop .

I Miss my Girls . Let's Party !

Happy advance 19th Birthday to Pua Jun Wei ! going to his celebration this saturday ! (:
Toodles ~

2008-08-20T21:26:00.000-07:00

Hippo for $22 ! (:

Staring with this cute lil Hippo ! (: It's the first thing that caught my eye at the arcade ! Story goes , Me , Darling , Wei Sheng , Ke Jun , Kai Quan , Sebas , Wee Yong & 2 other girls were at Sentosa , grabed dinner at Vivo , bus-ed back to Bishan to catch The Mummy Returns . While waiting for time to pass , the guys decide to play some games to kill time . SO , i saw this Hippo and Irritated Darling to catch it for me ! We spend $20+ just to catch this ! I love hippo ! So freaking cute ! (:

Anyway , nothing much to update about . Many many Dinner's to attend . Funeral too . & birthdays ! Lols . might be going to KL for another dinner . I guess it's gonna be fun to go KL . (:

BTW Happy Birthday to Ah Seng Wife Wendlyn ( hope i didnt spell it wrongly )

& Sebas ! Both same birthday 17 Aug (:

Did I say that I'm going to Korea at December ? I'm really looking forward to the trip . Will be going with my family & aunts & cousins ! Can't wait . Very sad wei cant come . ):

Guess that's all , I'll end here !

Today's Conclusion : Fuck Cramps ! ):

Song for the Day : No Air

Last But not Least , I Love Baobei ! Hees ! (:

Sometimes I wish that you missed me too , How are you ? K.

2008-08-05T00:13:00.000-07:00

A Lovely Good Morning Toast With Egg (:

Today is a rather Sunny day . i found this picture from flicker & it's really cute . The brown lil' fella is actually a Toast & the yellow whitey is a Sunny side up egg . haha ! cute right . (:

Back from Darling's Bro 21st Birthday Chalet on sunday , was Very Very tired out from all the busy stuffs . Swimming , WWW , looking after the kids , entertaining the adults , BBQ-ing food for everyone , carrying stuffs , walking to & fro Downtown to buy stuffs for them & Sleeping late . Hmmms .. it was pretty fun but tiring lor ! Will upload the pictures soon . (:

Watched Money No Enough 2 Twice but i cant help not to cry , VERY VERY sad & worth it movie . All the ERP stuffs and govt stuffs are like sooooooooo true can ! & after watching this movie I kinda miss my Ah mah & my Daddy . (: anyone who hasn't watched the movie PLEASE go watch it !

7th Month is here ! & it's going to be a VERY busy month for Darling . & Frankly speaking I'm quite scared . Haha . Do take care of yourselves Dearest Girls & Darling . Yes , I'm going to Jia tou with Darling later on . so many dinner's to attend . (: Gonna go get ready if not Darling is goning to scold me again . :D Update soon !

Today's conclusion : ERP = Every Road Pay . & Govt is BullShit . :p

Song for the Day : We Are Singapore (:

2008-07-30T23:19:00.000-07:00

Happiness Know no bounderies , So Fly !

I woke up this morning to hear a piece of very good news . It's kinda linked to being happy and finding happiness of one of my dearest Friend/Sister . My Jie bai hao jie mei . (:

But take note that finding happiness is never hard but maintaining the happiness will neever be easy .

I hope happiness will find all of my dearest one by one . It always bugs me about something , Whenever you want to find happiness it wouldn't be there . But when the moment you give up searching for it , it comes for you . (:

I'm going to Darling's Brother 21st Birthday chalet tmr so I guess I won't be back to blog for a little while ! (:

& Also ! Happy 16th Birthday to my dearest Cousin Dexter Chia Siu Yen , I knew you vomited ! (: Happy hugs ! Teehees

Happy 18th Birthday to my ex classmate David Hee , 18 years old is the time to grow up and be mature . Please don't do stuopid things anymore , learn to grow up and be responsible for everyone around you . (: Take care .

Not to forget ,

Todays Conculsion : Don't Keep Seeking for Something that Eventually Will Come Seeking for You . Happiness is One of Them . (:

Song for the Day : Don't Worry Be Happy . :D

2008-07-29T12:12:00.000-07:00

Am I waiting for a miracle that doesn't exist ?

Today is one of days I wish ended well . However it was not what I really expected .

I need some inspiring words to inspire my Fucking brain . Everything was really kinda great Today , but again Midnight , things turned sucky . Please teach ME what YOU want me to do ? Why cant my day just end well like I thought it will ?!

Conclusion : Whenever You want something VERY badly , You'll NEVER

................get it .

Song for Today : I Hate Myself for Lovin' You

2008-07-17T03:09:00.000-07:00

Can you fix my H-E-A-R-T ? Cause it's D-A-M-A-G-E-D
I am satisfied but I'm not happy .
Actions speaks louder then words . Please put this puzzle together again .
How you gonna fix it ?

2008-07-11T05:56:00.000-07:00

Today is a day of mixed feelings . Was feeling happy earlier in the day & now feeling down in the night .
Somehow I feel that I'm no longer important anymore in their hearts .
Maybe we're still BFF's said only by mouth , but in their (' v ') ? Maybe they don't mean it anymore .__________________________-_____V
I'm always not around no matter good things or bad things that happens to them . & It's a fact . I don't see myself in their lifes anymore . If it wasn't because I stay under one roof with Wei , I guess I wouldn't even know any f-ing shit that happens in their everyday life .

So I say , it's a rather mixed feelings day , Today's conclusion .
Freedom is not something that I should give up , Yet again ,
How can I give up my Relationship for freedom ?

Enlighten me .

2008-07-04T03:43:00.001-07:00

PICTURES PICTURES !

Genting :

Darling handsome hor ! (:

Cute Siuyi ! Misses * Dont worry i didnt post the ugly one . :) :

Random pics : Miny being naughty & sitting on Wei (:

edding Dress ! helping friend be Bridal model . (:

I Miss 131 & Gf's :

UNDERWATER WORLD ! :

Darlings new foot tattoo done by my 3rd uncle ! :

Thats all I guess ! Update soon (:

Love Darling ! (:

2008-07-04T02:08:00.000-07:00

There are like so many things I need to update ! why isit that everytime I update my blog I have so many things to write about . :) Actually I only remember bits and pieces of what happen thru the last few weeks so I'll just write what I remember . Hees ! :D

Basically Happy Belated Birthdays to my 131 Brothers Eric & Jeremy .
Sorry bro's that I didnt go , hope you guys wont be angry with me ! (: Really miss 131 Loads ! Take care all brothers ! (: hope we can meet up soon . But please NO LAST MIN okay !

Went Genting again with Darling , Laoshu & Wife . Had fun ya ! This time I didnt fall sick ! I WENT TO THE THEME PARK !! woots ! & I saw Darling Siuyi & her cousins there ! Surprised cause Hua Hua jie jie told me that they went to Malaca . lols ! & it was Laoshu's 28th Birthday m we surprise him with cake & his wife with presents , haha ! it was a rather funny excuse we did to make him come over to our room to see the cake . HA ! & I CAN GO INSIDE THE CASINO ! wooo ! Darling didnt manage to go in , must be 21 then can go in but luckily i used Sherlyn's passport and got in ! Darling use Laoshu passport cant go in , LOL ! They really dont look alike in anyway ! Hees ! Somehow we almost couldnt make it back to SG , haha ! we overslept on our last day and missed our bus , luckily another driver drove us down hill to catch our bus ! Lols !
Came back on Sunday Midnight , it was Father's Day . We celebrated on Tuesday cause wei has off day. Simple meal only cause dad was rather busy that day . anyway , HAPPY FATHER'S DAY , WE LOVE YOU DAD ! muackkkkk !

01.07.08
Happy 6 Months Darling . Together for half a year le , went thru good & bad times for so long . I hope we'll stay like this , more trust , more TLC & less quarrels alright . I Treasure you alot & I want you to do the same . (: Actually wanted to spend anni at Vivo with movie but there was just SO MANY ppl ! so Darling surprised me to Underwater World . (: had loads of fun playing with the underwater camera . HAHA ! and feeding the fishes & the scary Stingrays ! actually wanted to watch Songs of the Seas but we missed the timing . (: Darling Garry Ng Wei Ming , I Love you . *muacks* Hees ! update pics later .

Yesterday went to Bukit Panjang visit 3rd uncle at his place cause my Darling wants a tattoo from him . (: after tattooing , slacked with my uncle , daddy , their tattooing friends , Morgan , cousin huahuajiejie , her bf & darling . from 7pm++ they drink at coffee shop until 1+ ! =.= though tired but they all were very funny . Daddy was trying to learn how to speak Tamil from Morgan and it was SO Freaking FUNNY CAN ! haha . Darling & i didnt drink we listen until we also seh . LMAOS ! anyway its been such a long time since i last saw daddy so happy . We're all going to Jim's pub this saturday . Fun & Slack again , weeeeee ... !

Was broswing thru all my Gf's blogs , suddenly felt so drifted from them , its been 3 weeks since I saw Weenah & Evan . I really miss them alot . those days where we met up and called everyday . I'm sorry I'm always not around but I'm always missing & thinking of all of you . I hope you all wont be mad at me . I Love You Girls always . please take care when I cant be there for you girls . Deepest apology . ):

Pictures will be in the next post , cause this one is too long . (:

After reading Cat's & Wei's Blog , I kinda feel mad at Cat . Why must she put Wei's name as Someone . I feel thats its very rude ! After all her calling and talking to wei recently claiming that she wants them to treat her as sister again but yet she write this kinda thing on her blog . I'm really speechless towards her . She once told me during our Jiatou that she wants wei evan & weenah to forgive her and that she knows she's wrong but yet I dont feel that she still wants them to forgive her after i read how she describe wei . Everyone is very pissed at her now . Even me an outsider of their quarrels feel very offended now . Everything she said & do is totally different . This is a problem between WQ & Cat why must you push the blame to someone else ? In the first place you already knew that WQ still likes Wei , then why still so ge kan go be with him ? You can blame no one expect for your silly naive self . I really dont know what else to say to you anymore . I tired to make relationships better but you ruin it with your own hands . I tried to speak up for you in the past , but now I see no more point why i should help you . You are on your own now . I wash my hands of you Cat .

2008-06-04T04:00:00.000-07:00

Somehow I'm feeling abit lost right now , my mind is so empty . For the first time in my life I felt so empty , how should I describe it . Like as if all my confidence had suddenly disappeared & I can't seem to bring them back anymore . It's like my whole world had become different .
Or isit because of my heart that feels so hollow but yet weights heavily till I can't feel myself breathing ?
Or isit these nights that I can't sleep but yet I can't seem to unburrow myself from my blanket ?
Or isit the dark , empty house & blank walls make me feel so afriad & alone ?
Or isit the rain in the afternoon made me think that all my hopes are actually no hopes ?
Or isit my poor appetite & shivering hands reminding my brain that I have lost something important ?
Or should I say that I desevered all this ?

I'm feeling abit weird , I never felt this way before . I don't know why I lied . I feel stupid , I regret it now but I guess its too late . Am I worth for this relationship ? Am I even worthy enough to be his ? I did alot of brainwashing today . Instead of encouragement & motivation all my brainwashing lead to worst feelings towards myself . I realised that I've really been the one who causes all these problems to my relationship . Somehow I'm starting to allow myself to let myself & others to hate me .
Yes & again I would repeat myself , I AM VERY LOST .
Please Darling , would you stay to guide me ?
Loves .

2008-06-01T23:16:00.000-07:00

I guess I'll start with pictures for today . (:

Darling's Birthday Dinner with me @ Tamp Mall :

Seoul Garden (: Yum !

Happy 18th Birthday Darling , Loves !

Random Pics :

Look at my Miny , So Furry . (:

My Ex Working station at J8 :

Take care of this booth for me ! ByeBye lovely booth .

Going to work . (: Darling say this one cute .

Lao Shu & Sherlynn's ROM :

Grats to the two Married couples , AhSeng & Wendlyn , LaoShu & Sherlynn. Hope i didnt spell their names wrongly .

( The other pictures taken by photographer will be upload once i get it. )

Yeah ! Trip to Science center to see Dinosaurs Alive ! :

DoDo Bird ! haha (:

Went to Johor With Darling & Family :

That's all for the pictures !

Many things happen recently I dont wish to go into details but from all this matters it made me seen how friendship can be so easily given up . Somehow i believe its because this whole matter doesnt really concern me , so it might be true that i cant understand how they felt . I still hope that someday they can learn to accept this whole issue . We'll have to accept them sooner or later right ? (: Give each other some time to cool down and soon everything will be over . Cheer up my girls . No matter what , I'll always be here for you all & never let anyone hurt you girls . I know i'm always not around when you guys go out , but no matter what I'm always checking and making sure that you all are safe and well . I'm sorry i'm never there when you girls have outing i hope you'll all understand . Sorry Girls , I Miss You all . Please take care & hopefully see us all tgt again . (: & Yes My Girls is refering to Cat as well .

Weather has been really bad recently , so please all take care of your health . slowly one by one of us got sick . First wei got fever then me fever till 40 degree . almost landed myself in hospital . Lols ! Thanks to Darling & Auntie Uncle who took care of me for that 3 days . Auntie is like a mom to me ! Next sickly person became weenah , also fever . then Evan , sick for 2 days . haha . PLEASE DRINK MORE WATER LAH !

5 Months Together , time passes so quickly that i cant even believe . haha . Garry Ng & Myself spent 5th month at Johor with his family , had a great time ! Darling , though i always do things to make you angry i never really mean it de . We've been thru so much if you give up now everything will go down the drain & liked you said , it would be a waste to let go now . Now we have to strive hard and work hard . no more angry words , no more childish thinking . Just wanna let you know that I love you always , & i want you to do that too . Strive together okay ? I Love you . Muacks . (:

I think mostly thats all that i want to blog about bahs . (: my mind is rather empty now . I'll go play my DooMS ! Nehs ! Update soon , Loves ALL ! (:

I Love Darling !

2008-05-14T21:45:00.000-07:00

Okay , i'm like f-ing bored . thanks to some slow poke office girls . I didnt take amy I-MEI number from the KIV's phone . no one told me that they didnt put IMEI number there , all i had to do was to let customer collect & try the phone . & now i like let 8+ customers collect their phone without taking down the IMEI number . Fuck .
Stupid office ppl like freaking send me an email just this morning to tell me that i have to take imei number la . & like the stock came in 2 days ago lor . FUCKING SLOWPOKE . now i have to go explain to my managers & like as if i make a freaking big mistake again . FUCK YOU . fucking office girls . _l_
Anyway , i'm leaving this company by the end of this month , cause Darling was hoping that i find a weekend off job . so i told Jason about this . This kinda weird and kind of him to offer me to stay and he said that he will give me 1K Basic pay and also addition of commisions work 5 days weekdays and off 2 weekends . & i get to work with wei & weenah & evan . I THINK ITS QUITE A GOOD DEAL . but somehow Darling still doesnt like it , so i guess i'll have to reject this good offer . ):
Okay , wei has a new link for her blog . she's like so song , so free to blog and blah blah . & how come i like always have no time to do all these . haha . i would like to change my blog pictures too you know . (:
Omg , i feel so uncomfortable . i'm being watched la . -.- some ppl just like to peep at me thru glasses & think that i wont notice . yuck . digusted .

Now i stopped clubbing for quite long already , partly given up clubbing life for my Darling . I guess somehow its quite worth it la . haha !
I really feel like sleeping sia , its f-ing bored at work . i completed watching 1 whole drama series during this 2 days haha ! recently i ping xue lehs . bend down or squat down suddenly will very dizzy and blackout for few seconds . haha . i sohuld go have some blood test . NEH !
Okay , i'll go back to work now , maybe if i'm bored will blog again . haha .
BYE FOOOOOOOOOOOOO ~ hardo gayyyyy .

I love Darling ! (:

2008-05-06T22:25:00.000-07:00

What a boring day , working at J8 Motorola booth now . Used to work at Suntec Motorola booth but got transfered to Bishan cause it's nearer to my house . (:
but somehow i miss Suntec ! maybe cause there're more sales there & ShuYing to talk to me . Over here i work alone . ):
haha .

06-May-08
Happy Birthday to Darling !
You're 18 ! Lets go sign up for driving classes soon !
I love you ! Muacks .
i'll update the pictures of his birthday real soon when i'm home and able to use the computer . (:
he is celebrating his Birthday on this coming Friday . Gonna have fun then . (:

Nothing much to blog about i guess , went for Samsung training yesterday so let you guys check out this new phone . Its called the Samsung Soul ( Ultra Edition lll ) it's Launching this coming Saturday in black , sliver will come out later . (:

Chio right . okay . back to work . Update soon . I Love Darling !

2008-04-20T22:23:00.000-07:00

OMFG !

Powerhouse IS HEAVEN !!!!!!!!!

I love all my girls . & Weenah , pls train your drinking skills . LOLs !

I've got to cut down on clubbing . It's bad for my health . Teehees . D:

Happy 18th to me on 9 April . I was in Bali with Darling . haha . my wonderful birthday present , a ticket to Bali . Thanks to Darling & his mummy & daddy . I dont have to pay a single cent . lols . so paiseh sia . nvm . Darling still owes me a Cake ! Neh !

This is a rather random post . I just came back fomr Darling's place not long ago . so i'm dead beat . Good night all . I'm going for my beauty sleeppppppp . (:

Update soon !

Darling , You have Shark teeth . Bali !

Hi Bobby ! (: Darling's dog .

Hello , I'm Cuter okay ?! Miny , My dog .

2008-03-16T09:28:00.000-07:00

I've been so lazy to update recently . Anyway so many things happen this few weeks , so I'll just make it short and simple ! easier for readers ( also for me . xD )

I quit my job as a nurse , because my phone was stolen from the staff . -.- MY POOR 5610 ! Sob . so now i'm jobless & my appel for poly was unsucessful . studying some courses then go out to work i guess . Thats my poor life . :(

Chinese new year ! Took quite a few photos , can check it out later .

Went to Zoo & Night Safari with Darling . We went in Zoo for free ! woo ~ We're super lucky that a couple with some special card that can bring 4 ppl in for free . The couple asked us to join them in ! How lucky can we get . :) Night Safari ! Really very different from what i expected . Other ppl say that go night safari is to see red eyes . but its really different . However ! Its really fucking EXPENSIVE ! $32 for admission and tram . -.-! High end . =.= but i enjoyed it really . :) the crew there took photos for us . Its nice la ! so happy ! Show you guys later . Happy 2nd Month ! :D

Valentine's Day , Darling bought the Valentine's edition Swatch watch for me ! At first he said he didnt buy anything for me . so i wasnt prepared for any surprises . Suddenly popped out some bears bouqet and the watch . Thanks Darling . I gave him a perfume . Then went to Changi Airport with Laoshu & gf, Ah Seng & gf & Raymond for supper . Enjoyed ! Happy Valentine's Darling . I Love You .

Too many things till i cant really remember . just blog in the bits & pieces that i remember . :)

Most recent , Romp3 @ Zouk , It was OMFG fun ! Finally i get to club with all my lovelys, brothers and the girls ! Weenah , Evan , Wei , Rui , Fiona , Vennon , Eric & Friends , Wei Quan , Ke Jun , Wei Sheng , Kai Quan , Darling & me ! WOO . it was really really fun , the Ah Gua's on the platform really had the party going . Still quite sad that we cant go up to the 18 side . But who cares ! i'm going to be 18 in less than a month ! Really cant wait .

Darling said he'll celebrate with me on a cruise ! my first time on cruise ! hopefully can book on the day of my birthday ! Teehee ! :) If anyone got infomation on Star Cruise Virgo tickets for 9 April PLEASE tell me which agnecy ! Thanks a million !

I'm going Genting on the coming Friday with Darling , Darling's mummy & relatives ! first time going overseas with my Boyfriend's family . :) Only for 2 Days . Please miss me while i'm gone ~ I'm sure gonna get loads of fun , & the best thing is i dont need to pay a single cent . thanks to Darling's Daddy & Mummy ! Woo ~ Excited !

Btw , I need a fucking job .

ASAP ! so many ppl's birthday's are coming . O.M.G Wei Quan , Evan , Jave , Jolyn , Melissa , Wei & Mine etc . i can die lor ! Can God give me some cash ? O.o

Kenneth got caught for some illgeal stuffs i shall not say in details . Please take care of yourself . Dont worry . just hurry into NS and you wont need to go in . You will be fine . Take care dear friend . :)

My dear Girls . There are many other better guys out there waiting for you girls . I really dont wish to see anyone shed tears or fall into bad guys . It really breaks my heart . Weenah , there is one good guy infront of you already , please dont fall into the pit where you once fell . Move on to a better one . Evan , Cheer up & move on . Look at all the better guys whom you haven seen yet . i'll be there if you need someone . Wei , Cherish what you have before its too late , make your mind and dont confuse yourself . XiaoRui , dont worry , dont rush . One day , Mr Right will surely come . :) Lucks ! All the best my dear girls ! I Love you all .

Here goes the photos !

CNY Day 1

CNY Day 2

Valentine's Day ! :)
Happy 2nd Month Darling ! Mwahs !

Day @ Park ! Fun Fun FunRomp3 ! Evan Weenah Me .

2008-01-13T23:44:00.000-08:00

I recieved a letter from moe le ! comes with my password and telling us to get ready to recieve our results . I LIKE SO SCARED CAN ! lols . wei says she cant wait for results to come out , for me i'm so not entu to see my results . hopefully it will not be another disappointment to myself . :(
Anyway , Saturday went out with Wei , Darling . Was suppose to meet Siu yi dar & her dar at PCBunk at 12.30 . but we were so late , reached at 2+ . Her bf had something on , so we didnt manage to see him in the end . -.-'' but nvm . she was with her few classmates .
Left for vivo later on , checked out the cinema , actually wanted to watch Body 19 but my dear cousin yi is UNDERAGED . kakas ! so we decided on One Missed Call . tickets for 6+ is sold out . so we just bought 9+ tickets . bought extra for My dearest Evan . When to Garry's resturant , KimGary for dinner . Ray Ray is working there . haha ! he look really serious when he's working la . I swear to god that he looks really handsome when he's serious . he doesnt believe me . lols ! ate toast that raymond made & some other yummy food . Then some bad things happen , made dar yi cry . nvm . forget about it . we had 2 hours left before the movie so went to walk around , bought sweets , crapping around with the girls , ate Ben & Jerry's ! :) then the roof top . slacked . Then me & Darling took some time for the both of us . went to walk around ourselves . then start to talk about star cruise . suddenly he say want bring us somewhere .
Walked over to HabourFront center . he told wei that we going haunted house . but in the end we went to a jetty . see star cruise ! WEEEEEE . saw Tarus . a smaller cruise . Darling say on my birthday he want bring me go Star Cruise Virgo ! the biggest of all ! WOO ~ hoho :)
Then met Evan , thats when all the crapping really starts ! Went to Food Junction accompany her eat . Desmond's hokkien mee . haha . crap like hell la . Evan & Garry laughter super funny la ! buey tahan sia ! laugh until stomach pain . haha . then wei almost fell down . Evan laugh like one mad woman . haha . Went for movie . bought popcorn drinks ! One Missed Call is almost the same as the Jap verision . Was okok la . not really very scary , cause i know which part is scary le . but stupid darling keep scare me . asshole la ! then the scary part Evan laugh very loudly , then she fell asleep . HAHA . yi like so hum laaaaa . dont dare listen to the sound , on her own music . haha . the jacket cover her whole face can ! haha . HUMJI ! lols !
After movie . met Raymond . Send Yi to bus stop . aunt come fetch her . wei & evan go take free ride ! then Darling send me home before going down to tanjong pagar to meet his friends . Home Sweet Home .
Sentosa This Thur & Sat Anyone ?
I will still want to see yi's bf real soon ! i think he's not a bad kid la . hmmms ... hopefully he doesnt commit the same mistake again . if he does , i will kill him .
Going down to bring Miny for a walk ! Update real soon !
Take Care everyone ! Love Darling ~ :D
Take care Kenneth .

2008-01-05T23:36:00.000-08:00

ITS A START OF A NEW YEAR ! HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE !
time pass so quickly that one year has gone off just by the blink of an eye . so many things happen in one year that seems like it was only yesterday . this year is a bad luck year for all horses ! Please all horses go pray tai sui when you're free !
its not that i'm mi xing or what , is i dont believe also cannot .
new year eve , went bugis with Evan , Weenah & Wei . meet up with Junwei , Kai , Martin & one of their friends . bought some things from batam for Junwei . (: they seem to be doing well . i really missed hanging out with them . so fun so much memories . too bad we all stay so far away . D: after that we accompany them for dinner , halfway thru we left to meet Aeon , Ben & Charles for dinner tgt . actually wanted to eat steamboat but too many ppl so we just ate simple wanton mee . it tasted really awaful though . all left for town to meet up with layyen & cat . then weenah's slipper dropped into the gap of the mrt at bugis . -.- fucking suay la . went to borrow a pair of slippers from control station . at wisma . ben was caught by cid's claiming that we disturbed bangalahs . fucking bo liaos . by 12+am ben was handcuffed back to Tanglin . fucking suay lor . & at town is was like we;re celebrating Depavali la ! so many fucked up bangalahs . staring like as if there is a nice show to watch . in the end we left for home early , cat & layyen went to wait for ben .
Anyway i enjoyed my Batam trip . went with Evan , Evon , Rui , Mom , Wei & Feb . it was really fun la ! we spent like so much money . Massage is like WOOH ~ damn song ! Polo tees ! actually wanted to buy for Kenneth but mom keep nagging . so bought one for dad , one for Darling Garry , one for myself . (: went to alot of places in batam with feb & his bodyguard protecting us . Kendrick the bodyguard is like super-duper CUTE LA ! haha . overall i enjoyed myself hell lots la !
i'm kinda lazy to write more . Anyway , my computer is 'chui' already . gone for servicing . died like dont know how lor . -.-!!
Want to wish some ppl happy birthday !
Dearest 13ONE !
4th Jan 08 -
- Happy Birthday Ken ! We all had a great time at Kbox . Thank god that some ppl wasnt there to spoil the day !! (: update photos next time !
- Happy Birthday Kazuya Shawn Tay Xue Yuan , aka Yaya ! Old le . Must learn to grow up le okays ! Take care ! :D
upcoming birthdays
Jin dao , Chen yee , Evan then myself ! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE .
Update photos next time . cause i at stupid wugui darling house . his com cannot send photos in . O.o! Take care . Darling is such a pigggggggg . sleep sleep sleep ~ KAKAs ! :D
Take care Kenneth , Update soon !

2007-12-17T22:53:00.000-08:00

Check This out !

Tattoo Time !

Halfway Done ! Take a break !

2nd Round ! This Hurts ! :(
TADA ~ !

Da Gong Gao Chen ! Prettye !

Saw on friendster that Kenneth is hurt . I'm not sure what happen as well but i wish that he get well soon ! && for Junwei & Gang , i hope all of you will be fine ! Promise to celebrate X'mas with me de hor ! lols . I miss all of you !
Stupid WEI QUAN ! SUAN SUAN SUAN ! LOLS !

Darling Wu gui , I'm Sorry .. Forgive me hao mahs ? :(

Hi Wei , i know you love me ! WAHA !
This is really cute ! Lemon !

2007-12-05T09:34:00.000-08:00

I really dont know how to put it ? Things happen to fast & too much at a time . What have i got to say ? I have no right to speak up right ? Total disappointment towards some adults . Why ? Why does bad things always happen to me all of a sudden & it always happens all together at one go .

Firstly , someone i love left me . 2nd , my family . whats going to be next ? I had never thought that my family will turn out this way , i didnt expect it . & in the most brutal way , it hurt me so deeply to the wound that has been hurt only weeks ago . I walked out of the doors & i cant help but cry helplessly . suddenly i found no one to turn to . not to Sisters as i know we're all going thru a rough path now . not to Kenneth cause i can no longer expect him to be there for me . no one . Thanks to Garry . if not i would have wondered around going no where . My helpless crying for hours couldnt help me . back home , the look on daddy's face made it worst .

Why cant i have a perfect family till the day i die ? so what if i've grown up ? grown up no need perfect family ? & i will always be a small kid towards my parents .

Sincerely Thanks to :

Garry , Thanks for being my pillar when i was falling ,

Quan , Thanks for listening and cheering me up ,

2nd Aunt , Thanks for being there for Dad ,

Evan , Thanks for standing by & wiping my tears ,

Miny , Thanks for staying by my pillow & lick my tears .

& i know you are no longer there for me , i know i shouldnt love you anymore .

You are going to be just a mere memory to me . I Love You . Kenneth Chew .

Son's name : Zac **** Zhi Heng . i thought of it when i was working , not bad huh ?

I Will Move On , I Love Dad . Please cheer up dad , i'll always be here for you .

2007-11-26T01:54:00.000-08:00

Just found some old drafts in my draft post . (: I guess somehow it still affects me . heck it . just for the fun of posting . Read for fun all !

I just realised , few moments ago . That when i go up to friendster , i would be afriad to see the changes in his profile . & Yes , there were changes . Single , my pictures were gone . only left one , a pic that i took with him & he was acting cute . i was happy to see that pic still there . for the rest of the changes i cried non stop . i know , that i had been lying to myself . I still cannot accept the fact that Kenneth is no longer part of my life , that he is no longer mine . but yet i keep pretending that i am moving on . i cant , i cant move on , i cant stop my unlimited love for him . There has been too many good memories with him that i will not recall the bad memories . and between the bad memories there is always good memories .

2007-11-21T07:02:00.000-08:00

Yesterday went to Plush , heard of big news . Something bad happen to Pua Jun Wei ! Such a big matter had happen and yet nobody told me or Evan . i'm so worried about him last night . This afternoon talked to Teri online & found out that Junwei has just been bailed out few hours ago . Called him on the spot , that fucker still have to mood to joke with me about jail . asshole . scared the hell out of me . but he said that he should be alright . nothing big is going to happen to him . His next court hearing is on the 24th dec ! which is x'mas eve . I dont care , i AM going to take off to go to his hearing . & i sincerely wish that he is able to celebrate x'mas eve with us . i really pray that everything will go well for him . I know that even if i knew i wouldnt be able to do anything about it , but at least let me know . he is the only one among Kenneth's friends that had been around to help me after so much has happen . & among those group of friends junwei is the only one that i can talk the most to . so please , dont try to hide anything from me . even if the case happens on any one of you ( martin , kai , allen , teri , jonas , colin etc. ) CHOY TOUCH WOOD ! i will still be as worried as now . You guys have been a great help and great friends to me , i should thank kenneth for letting me know all of you . Really Kenneth , i had never regret knowing your friends .

Its been one week , i still cant stop missing you . was at downtown on monday , walked thru the place of our shadows . every small little corner of downtown reminds me of our happy memories . & the urge of calling you when i'm at downtown , hoping to see you but yet again not to see you . & when i heard of Junwei's news the stronger urge of calling you & asking if you knew . Wei & Evan are much more xinfu then me , at least they can still go out with their love ones . Evan still has febian . Wei still has hong joo . me ? i dont have you . i cant rely on you when i need a shoulder . i cant . Yes , it feels so cold this week . even the wind is against me , making me feel so cold and lonely that even my bones can feel it . I had never imgaine my life without you , my plans were already well planned . & it consist of you in my future . But now , i really dont wish to close my eyes everynight , cause i hate the feeling of opening my eyes & realising that you are no longer there . It really hurts too much . I really wish very much to open my eyes & look at the sleeping face of yours beside me , smell the nice perfume on your shirt , see the smile on your face happily eating the breakfast i made for you , hear the familiar laughter of you laughing at your own lame jokes , the look on your face when we eat cheese & egg prata , listen to your endless complains of losing bets in soccer & your non-stop of bully-ing/making fun of me when i'm sitting on your bike . I keep repeating to myself that i can live without you , that i dont love you anymore . that i should be happy that i broke up with you and that i am still very attractive with many suitors that its your loss for breaking up with me . no i cant convince myself that i can continue without you , that i dont love you anymore , that its your loss & i still cant let anyone in the door to my heart with you still inside & occupied up all the space in my heart , my brain , my soul .there is not a day that i wont think of you . i tried so hard to make myself tired so that i wont miss you but still i would . what can i do to forget you ?! please tell me , teach me what to do ...
Why cant i bring myself to hate you . Kenneth Chew Wen Sheng . I really really miss you like crazy ...

2007-11-18T05:20:00.000-08:00

Work work work work . i just want to make myself tired so that i wont go around thinking too much . Hais .. i really do miss him alot . Yes , its all over . He did change . at redhill , no more glasses . Kenneth Chew , no more . Everyone thinks that as long as we dont meet up , dont talk to each other, the feelings would no longer be there . but he is wrong . it makes me think of him more . everywhere i go , shadows of us . it hurts most to recall the first time he hugged me . outside attica , i dared him to jump into singapore river , he almost did . i pulled him back , then he hugged me real tight . i wonder if he still remembers . Our song , that's when i love you . it reminds me of you laughing at your own jokes . The place where we first met , WWW . then you met me at fluid . then st james . After that saw you at circus . thats when i knew that i'm falling for you . east coast park . you first took your bike and meet me . Redbar , you whacked a guy because of me . stayes at the hospital till morning , the note you wrote for me . You always say that we are Guo-er & Long-er . your hand swelled up , i rub for you , and you rub my leg for me . & i helped you overcome your fear of dogs , Miny & you becoming so close & now you no longer fear dogs . Days spent at Pasir Ris with you and your friends . Outing with Irwin and friends . first month watching movie and ride me back home . second month eating billy bombers , the ring , the rose . the surprise . 3rd month , your birthday . do you even remember what you said to me ? that you're very happy to have me by your side . you even shed tears and said that you'll never ever leave me . the msges you sent ? that no matter what you will never stop loving me , even if i stop loving you , you wouldnt stop . no matter how many tantrums i throw you will not be angry with me . that we always quarrel over the smallest thing but in the end you will realise that you still care for me alot . Even planning for our future . Our son will be named Zac Chew . Thanks for always supporting me on clubbing events . always around to protect me . i thought you were special from the others , i thought this time it would really last . who knew . everything changed , he changed . No longer the guy that i fell in love deeply with , no longer the one that i believe would be my husband .

He told me that he owes the loan sharks 7k+ and he is stress . i can see it from the skinny arms that he have . he lost weight . and i really did feel the heartache . it really hurts inside to see him suffer this way . the moment i saw him i did feel happy , i thought that someone else would be with him , but i was wrong , he was alone . i could see his back view , as if there is a big burden that he is carrying . Am i his burden ? am i pulling him back ? i know i dont have a chioce , your sincerely asking for break cannot be rejected . what right am i to say no ? There is no more love from you for me when there are unlimited love from me for you . why is it that when i put my heart and soul my everything into e relationship it always turns out bad ? Yes , Rui is right guys cannot be trusted . but when you find one guy that you really love , its hard not to trust him .

i promised that i wont do silly things . I cannot promise that my unlimited love will stop and i cannot promise that i can forget you . but Kenneth Chew Wen Sheng . Please know that no matter what , Nobody in this world can ever be your sub or replace you . & No one else can ever take over the memories that we both held . For me , i will remember you for the rest of my life . The man that i loved more than i loved danny , more than i loved david . This time i mean it , Kenneth Chew Wen Sheng , the man i loved most for my 17 years of life .

Evan , Rui , we must stand strong alright ? one day good things will surely come to us . Lets wait together , Stand Strong my dear Girls .

my bleeding mascara . my love for you .

Darling , i miss you .

Nights Darling . Nights

2007-11-11T07:40:00.000-08:00

I lost my phone !
What a great timing . i think i should have dropped it in a cab on my way to supper after party at Plush . :( so sad ! days without my phone is like hell . but nvm la . MIA for awhile to save my bill . haha !

been going for interviews at many places Salvatore Ferragamo, Hugo Boss . Still waiting for calls though . Weenah started work at Salvatore Ferragamo already . the work place is not bad and the pay too . but one think that doesnt interestes me is that there is no commission to be earned for part timers . At least Hugo boss have commission . Hopefully they can call me quick ! i really need job to buy new phone ! Haha . W910i :D

Anyway , did a one day ushering job introduced by Evon . at Suntec . together with Evan , Wei , Xiao Rui & Evon . Standing like 9hrs30min . lucky me i had a half hour break . the rest of the girls only had 20 mins or less . lols . it was easy money but at the end of the day everyone's leg is like omg ! pain and suan until no one bothered to walk . sitting at Food Republic expecting desmond to come serve us . lols . Sorry desmond & Thanks for the delicious Hokkien mee . (:so nice of him to treat us . :) all cabbed home and by 1am ++ i'm already in deep sleep . :)

I painted my room today . i'm so happy ! i painted it sky blue i think . Daddy says i yue bang yue mang . :( but i think i did a good job . haha ! moved some of the stuffs in my room , now it sure looks bigger . Next time Darling visit later he thought walk into wrong room . Lols !

Notice another upcoming party !

20th Nov Underage Party at Plush ! Tickets contact me ! :) We love Nightwatch !

Check out some pictures we took for the last few days !

On our way to Plush . Me Evan Wei :)

NightWatch ,

Marcus Ong

Kenneth Wong

On the train to Desmond ginna chalet .

Ushering at Suntec . Loves !

Evon , Rui , Wei , Evan & me ! :D

Thats all for this few days . I miss Darling truck loads .

I'm suddenly hooked onto this taiwan drama series . Why Why Love/ Exchange Love . :)

Gonna go watch it now . Nights all . Nights Darling , I Love You . <3

2007-11-04T03:46:00.000-08:00

One more paper to gooooo ! One more science MCQ & i will finally finish my O's
i think i did pretty well for physics , hopefully i can pass . :)
Maths . 50-50 la .
Chem is totally cmi . those i studied never came out & the ones i didnt all came out . T.T

The invilgaters teachers at semb secondary are totally pissing me off la . Why cant private students wear slippers to exams ? expect us to wear jeans and shoes to school . sandals are not allowed as well . its like .. WTF ?! They expect us to sign a stupid letter comfirming that we wore slippers today and we will not wear it again . writing our index number , name and phone numbers . I find it pretty dumb so i & wei did not sign , we were calles to stage to talk to the chief examiner . & this stupid fucked up male teacher of dont know what school . Shouted at me & wei when we were talking to the cheif examiner . its like not his problem , we were talking nicely to her right , he started acting like a mad dog screaming at us . ask us to write down our index number so that he can write comments on our maths paper and said that he wants to ban us from the next paper . Ha , so smart , he thinks that i would be afriad of him when he shout . sorry no lor . this kind of unreasonable teachers , i've seen alot . the louder you are the louder i will be . so i shouted back la . wei & i was like , i'm not gonna sign , i'm gonna go home now . then the teachers say if we dont sign we cant go home & she grabs weis arms real hard ! WTF ?! are they crazy ? i am i private student , i pay higher exam fees , i am only borrowing your school . and the teachers are so shocking rude , how can a teacher be so rude ? they said that they have to report to MOE . i called mom , i asked the teachers to tell me the male teachers name and which school he teach I WILL CALL MOE TO COMPLAIN ABOUT HIM . all of them keep quiet no one dared to say out his name . wei gave them mom's number and we left . superb-ly angry . i call mom , mom said they are unreasonable as well . MOE personal call mom's phone at night , i cry father cry mother to them . complaining about the fucking rude male teacher , mom told them that if my results are affected due to him , she will make sure that she sue him . Muhahaha ~ & after that day , he no longer comes to sembawang sec to invailate le . if i ever see him on my last paper . i WILL ask for his name . I WILL COMPLAIN HIM . shole ! -.-

Tuesday is my last paper , what will i be expecting from him ? My heart already tells me that i know what he will say , that i know the answer . no matter what i will accept . but i cannot promise that i wont cry . I still do hope that the outcome will not be what i expected it to be . sighs . obviously like what mom told me , he loves me but he is not ready to put in commitment to our relationship . Yes , he is right . Everyone changes . he changed ....

NOTICE FOR PARTIES -

8th NOV , 1st underage PARTY AT PLUSH !
Tickets at $16 , Contact me for futher details .

22nd NOV , Underage Party @ PLUSH !
Details will update again .

The other parties are strongly not recommended to go !
:)

AND BY THE WAY ,
i am crazily in love with this ad . cause it reminds me of a wonderful chalet i've once been to .

2007-10-20T01:22:00.000-07:00

O's have started , Liked i promised you . I will study hard & do my best for your sake .
& you too have to keep your promise . Steamboat after Exams .
Walking on a rocky path without my shoes right now . Our relationship , is it going to end this way ?
My tears , like a tap , flowly endlessly .
My heart , like falling in a bottomless pit , feels heavier every single day .
They asked , since he choose to enjoy the period of time being alone . Why do you even bother to shed tears for someone like him ?
Yes , in front of my dear friends , I showed that i am happy .
Behind the closed doors , inside my dark room , sadness , loniness . everything . Who would bother ? He won't .
I tell myself , i must be happy . Everything will turn out fine .
Kaisin said i slim down , some said i looked haggered .

Special thanks to Evon , Evan , Wei , Wei Quan , Louis , Garry , Most of all Junwei .
Thanks for being by my side when i needed , thanks for helping me when i was the most helpless . I love all of you .
Without all of you i am nothing . :D

Also :
16 Oct - Happy Birthday LiHui !
17 Oct - Happy Birthday Sylvia !
18 Oct - Happy Birthday Louis !
20 Oct - Happy Birthday Nick !

Going to nick party at DXO later . Club Club Club . I'm going to enjoy !
Wish me luck for my O's

2007-10-12T09:02:00.001-07:00

Long time no update . Recently like nothing exciting to update .

thanks to my lovely spammers , haha . who made my tag board more exciting . :)

Anyway , i did write an entry the other day but i forgot to save it , so it was like completely poof ! gone . was about my Darling`s birthday chalet at Changi . haha lazy to write into details . everything was fun blah blah . Proves are all the photos they took . gonna upload them later .

Darling been busy this few days & i have to concentrate on studying . Darling promise to bring me eat steamboat after my O`s ! Weets . we hardly go dating , but he still comes over some nights to montior my studies . haha !

I have less than a week to my first paper for O`s && yet i have been mapling non stop . same goes to wei . Hope i can really motivate my mind to study on times other then my tuitions . :(
Damn , i`m actually quite scared of the exams , though it`s a 2nd for me but I`M STILL SCARED . at least this time i am not going to a stranger school alone ! hees ! :DD

Maple Maple Maple . haha . many asked me . Maple fun mehs ? so childish
at least for a person like me who hardly gets out of my home at this important exam periods , i can RELAX my mind by mapling . or some call it distraction . :) OKAYS . maple can help me kill time , fill up my boredom ! haha . and at least got ppl who trains with me , MY Guild is like totally dead ! active guild members only ME , Garry , Quan & Wei . -.- few lil kittys .

Dont know what else to say , but after my exams ! I GOT TO WORK WORK WORK ! save up some money && buy a car ! i estimated i needa save around 2-3 years . Depending on what pay i have && what car i want .

Alright there comes pics from Darling`s Chalet !

Friends who came on the first night . Allen bought the cake !

Lao fu Lao qi LOL ! :D

Friends who came on the 2nd Night . :D Yeah i bought the cake !

Darling`s Dad & Mom

Twin Bro Benneth & Kenneth ! :)

Arent we cute ? lols .

Starting to get wild !

Jin Hui & Darling ! They so cute can ! :D haha .

Darling , happy 19th birthday & Happy 3rd month ! Muacks .

Overall is like this la . haha . lazy to upload more . At the end everyone was drunk due to 5 Chivas & 1 Martell & 1 XO . LMAO !! going to maple with Garry le . Update real soon . :)

Nights ! Love Darling .

2007-09-23T04:45:00.000-07:00

Blahs , long time since i updated . haha . been busy recently . lols .
Busy Dating with my Dear Darling after he came back from Taiwan for many days . Mom also applied Maths tuition for me & wei at JusEducation @ Kathib .
First lesson with Evan , Evon & Wei , i believed we crap more than we listen . haha , all the guys at the tuition center like kena bang by lorry lor ! :DD okay la , but in the end i did learn one thing , FOMURLAS . which cause me big headaches .
Anyway , recently like sooooooo addicted to Maple la . Trained maple for like 3 days then lvl 5 lvls already . ALL THANKS TO THE X2EXP FROM WEI . lols . Together with wei quan , lulu && many more , all burn ppl . :( && Yes i love the guild name , though it has nothing to do with me . i think lulu did a good name , " 2getherAs1 " Nice righttttttt ! lmao .
Friday night , went dating with Darling cause he didnt meet me on thursday to eat the sushi i made for him ( which i threw it alllll away ) . met him at tiong bahru , went to eat Katong Laska , nice bodoh ! haha , after that went to Downtown , played pool with his gang of friends . Then they all decided that they want to go play lan . I happy sia , can train maple . lols ! Then went Simpang Bedok , the place so wulu la . like nobody de lor . Stupid Darling drove fast fast towards a hump , I ALMOST FLY OFF BODOH !! scary la . haha . he did that just to disturb me . wtf . O.o
Stop off at the prata shop , ate prata again . Darling like a happy eating the Cheese & Egg prata . Sot kia . haha .
Played lan unil 6.30+am . Darling && Gang played Dota until like so ji dong ! Screaming && laughing like some mad people la . after lan then BALEK KAMPONG ~

Ytd went Home club to show chen ze face , but instead of going inside to play , we had a fight outside with one stupid bitch called Lydia . the girl that was cheated by Marcus Ong , not the fat leedia okay ! She's like a fucking prostitude screaming outside the club la , haha . && when i copy whatever she said , everyone was like laughing at her la . HAHA ! she lose face bodoh . lmao . I think i should not go into details cause everything was like so draggy ... haha , whacked her , she cry asthma , she asked for 2nd round . ( fucking lame & stupid ) ignored her . Went off to boat quay with quan they all , then off to home at around 5.30am . && Darling is angry with me for starting the fight . :(
Now at Cousins house blogging . hahhaha .

In advance ,
HAPPY 33 BIRTHDAY TO MOM ! LOVE YOU . MUACKS !
HAPPY 19 BIRTHDAY TO DARLING KENNETH . MUUUUUUUACKSSSSSSSSS !
HAPPY 18 BIRTHDAY TO WEI JIE !
HAPPY 17 BIRTHDAY TO SOPHIA ! HAHA !
You know what ? All of them de birthday happens to be on the same day , 26 Sept .
lols !
I'm off to Maple . Bye , Update soon . :)
Love Darling .

2007-09-10T21:22:00.001-07:00

DARLING IS COMING BACK TODAY ~

Flight CI661 , Scheduled time 13:40 . Terminal 1 Belt 23 .
HAHA ! i checked his flight just now . :p
I'm gonna go meet him at pasir ris later . WEEEEEEEEEEEEE !

2007-09-08T16:07:00.000-07:00

Thanks for the advice everyone .
Yes , Kenneth Chew Wen Sheng is the only person that can bring me smiles && laughter .
The one who brightens up my days . Lame jokes that he laughs when he said it himself . haha .
I'm happy because of him .
What's real important to me right now are those who are always by my side ,
Those who never left me or hurt me .
My Sisters , Ang Weenah , Lim Yue Wei , Evan Teo
My Family , Mom , Dad , Cousins
My Love , Darling Kenneth Chew

First thing , i've got to work hard on studies , no more clubbing . No more mahjong sessions , no more boat quay outings . This is a promise to My Drarest Weenah && My Dumb Dumb Darling .

Countdown ! 2 more days till Darling comes back . I MISS HIM SO MUCH , I shall jump on him when he comes back .
Hees , At Quans house blogging now , Gotta go home for family day le .
Sayonara ~

Morning Darling , Come back soon ! Hope time past real fasttttttttttttttttt . :DD
Loves <3

2007-09-06T04:34:00.000-07:00

I made up my mind already . I MUST BE A DEVOTED GF !
haha . cause i know that in my heart , i just only miss him . But i love Kenneth . no matter how much i miss the past relationship , it will always be the past . Yes , weenah is right . He is no longer the same person as before le .
That was only a infactuation . After that day till now , everything that's in my head is Kenneth Chew

Everynight i wonder , is my Darling sleeping well in Taiwan ?
Every morning i wonder , my Darling tired anot ?
Every Afternoon i wonder , what is my Darling doing now ?
Every hour i wonder , my Darling got miss me anot ?
Every min i wonder , is my Darling having fun ?
Every sec i wonder , hope my Darling know that i miss him alottttttt !
Everything is about my Dumb dumb Darling
Kenneth Chew Wen Sheng .
its only his 2nd day in Taiwan && i almost cried last night before i sleep .
I MISSSSSSSS YOUUUUUUUUUU DARLING !

now i'm going velvet dragon without him , i know darling is worried && reminded me 300 times that if anything happens i must call Junwei && Colin . haha ! && Junwei again REMINDED 200 times that i MUST call him . hahaha . darlingggggggg , everyday i love you more && more .

I know its a mushy post , && quite dumb cause my Darling doesnt read my blogggggg . haha .
OFF TO VELVET DRAGON I GOOOOOOOOOOO .
Nights folks , Nights Darling .

MISSSSSSSSSS YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU ! Mua muack ~

2007-09-02T12:15:00.000-07:00

I was already over it , moved on . Having a wonderful life now ! Why ?! why must you suddenly appear at this point of time && make my heart feel that way again ?
DHGW . You again , even my sisters could see .. they said , the way i looked into those eyes of yours , its like as if i had never let go of our past relationship yet . I admit , that i AM still very BU FU . i really wanted to know what is the real reason that we broke up . i still bu gan xing . so till now , i still had not got the answer from you . Maybe , if you didnt tell me straight that you dont love me anymore , i will never xing fu kou fu .
WHY ! why must it be now ?! why must you refresh my memory now ! all of a sudden , i feel so confused ! && i was even reading the message that you send me on 22 june 2005 . 2 years ago , the break up message that left me crying for days . && your name on my arm . the way i scratch so hard till it bleed so much for it to go away . && right now , when i close my eyes , the fucking flashback . You && me , our memories . You were my 2nd boyfriend , the one who really showed me what love is . Koon how was the person who brought us together . 28.03.04 I could even believed it myself that you who liked me . 7 years & 50 days , remember ? teacher's day of sec 2 , you bought me a rose , held me hand walked around the school . Hug me in the canteen . Our first outing , our first kiss is a neoprint . Matchmaking of weenah & daryl on our school trip at SPH . Double date with weenah & daryl . Anacondas , Sembawang beach . Balcony , your birthday , Hilary & alinia made you kneel down to ask me for patch . Our 2 year contract , month neoprints that you stick on your phone & mine . Our walks to school & to home . My trip to Bali , your hugs & goodbye kiss , the way we didnt want to let go when i had to go home . Your smses to me everynight when i was at Bali . Call you the moment my plane touchdown in sg , trips to your place when you were sick . then you had to go malaysia , to laser your tattoo . I was downstairs & i saw your uncle driving you away . overseas called you every day . talk to your cousins ! Met me first thing when you came back . 2nd time you had to go , Promised me that you would marry me . but when you came back ... you drop me a big bomb that left me lonely for days .
its been 3 years already ! Why must you come back now & touch my heart again . DXO , that night , your smile , your eyes , your looks , your voice , your touch , keeps appearing in my mind . & then your messages to me this afternoon ..
I'M SO CONFUSED . i love kenneth , but why , your face keeps appearing . am i an unfaithful girlfriend ? can i have both of them ? can i not choose ?
What am i to do now . i love him but i miss you . what should i do ... Darling im sorry , i have this strog feeling that i had betrayed you the moment i even think of him . sorry darling ....

2007-08-29T03:46:00.000-07:00

Update time ! lols . been so lazy to update recently . with Lacus & my blog fans endless nagging , i finally decided to update . haha ! My come cannot play maple sia , i dont know why . asshole la ! i downloaded it for like half a day lor then cannot play , fuckkkkkkkkk !

updates *

Now evan has her dardar , Weenah has her husband , I have my Darling , Yi has her BF , Only left wei wei , Faster Find Happiness ! Then we can all go dating together ! lols !

26 Aug 07

Happy 2nd Month

Darling && me celebrated one day earlier cause it was on a sunday & we both have family days on sundays . This time we managed to eat Billy Bombers ! haha . Met Darling at The Cathay , bought movie tickets for Bourne Ultimatum . Went to eat Billy Bombers , the food was like super nice laaaaaaaaaa ! && ambience was so nice .

Darling gave me a BIG SUPRIZE ! LOL ! show you guys the picture later below ! Love it sooooooo much la ! hahahahahahaha . really a big a suprize . i was so shocked la ! haha ~ Thank you Darling

The movie TWO THUMBS UP la ! lols . very very very very nice lor . everything is like so amazing lor . the effects and the movie all very nice , something that you cannot predict de . lols . Must Watch lehs , super nice !

After the movie , I accompany Darling back to Pasir ris , Slack && watch them gamble till 7am plus then Darling send me home .

Darling , Darling , Happy 2nd month . Though others might laugh at us && think that weve been together for a very short time , but no matter what they say we will still strive till the end alright ?

I LOVE YOU !

Sunday went to Ah mah house , its been a long time since the family gathered together . haha . heard that Big aunt & jia hao korkor is coming back to singapore for 1 month in december , then its really gonna be a family reunion ! lols .

Okay , done this cause yi ask me to ,

List 10 facts about yourself .

1. Silly , Dumb , Stupid .

2. Always very Random !

3. Sing Sing Sing Sing Sing ~

4. DEVOTED TO MY DARLING ! :x

5. Cant swim :(

6. Very Very important about looks !

7. Emotional AKA crybaby . I LOVE EMO-ING :'(

8. Very jiang yi qi !

9. Scared of being alone :D

10. Treasure my friends alot ! ( Evan , Wei , Weenah , Yi , Dex )

List 6 people you want to do this quiz.
1. EVAN

2. BITCH WEENAH

3. LACUS

4. JOLENE

5. 13'1

6. EVERYONE WHO READS ! <33

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NEXT PICTURES ! SUPRIZE SUPRIZE FROM MY DUMB DUMB DARLING !! <33

Rose , Rose

OPEN UP ! its a couple Ring ! lols

Darling i love you , thanks !

Dont ever take the ring off . <33

Haha ! Dont whack ppl to hard , Hand will end up like this !

That's all of it , very nice right the ring ! Darling so sweet ~ I love Darling , Darling love me ~ haha ! <33

Gonna go play some games , update soon ! Nights Darling , Loves !

2007-08-14T03:40:00.000-07:00

What is love ?
What is friendship ?
sometimes i really wonder ...
How long have we walked down this never ending road of life ?
Who would have remember who done this or who said that ?

My dearest why ?
You seem like you never had the time , not for me , not for us .
Smiled more with your friends , i'm very clear .
Time passes , & no one will ever remember what was that spark that brought us together .
One day this beat will stop , we all know .
Well , i'm afriad . No one knows whether there will be a future or not .
Let time speak the truth . Love sick . there's no way to cure this sickness .
Things you've said now , might be wounds & pain in the future .

My friendship why ?
You seem happier without me now . Will there even be my shadows when we look back into the past to wonder what has become of our friendship ? Or even will i be your memory ? Maybe not . The passion between this circle of friendship , slowly .. Fading away ...
Yes , the tears , the happiness , the laughter , the screamings , the hugs , the playings , the promises , the special bonding , Who will remember & who will forget ? i know i will remember .
For you ? no one knows best .

& now this is the way where we have to part .
& who would have remember that we even met ?
& who would be there when we needed them ?
& who will remember what someone has done for them in slience ?
&amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp; who ? & who ....
No one would know ... This pain , this loneliness , this feeling . Nobody ...

2007-08-10T06:38:00.000-07:00

Yes ! Finally i have the chance to update my blog ! Cause daddy pluck out the wireless cause we keep going out late at night . LOL ! anyway , Wei keeps complaining that i dont reply people's tag messages , how to reply when i cannot come online sia . Retard . lols ! partly also lazy to reply la . xD
Went to vivo on Sat . Took train with gerald &&Wei over to meet Darling , took some photos outside vivo . Will upload the photos below . Watched perfect stranger with Darling after movie went to city plaza . Darling's friend all playing number ball . stayed there till like 6++ Then home sweet home !
Last sunday went out with my lovely cousins &&relatives ! Cousin Dex , Yi , Shirlyn , Aaron , Me &&amp; Wei . Aunt Ivy , Aunt Irene , Uncle Leonard , Mom &&Dad . so sad ah mah didnt come . :(
we went to Bugis to help Dex shop , he bought many things while i bought none :( how saddening . After all the shopping , Went to take neoprint with Cousin Dex &&Yi . shirlyn && aaron was mia at that moment . HAHA ! then went to TCC for coffees&&teas with the adults . Had lots of fun that day . the parents start gossiping at the carpark la ! so lame &&so hot . -.- haha . left for home after 1hr of gossiping . I love my cousins . && its been a super long time since i saw my ah mah . i shall visit her someday this week . :D
Mon took Dex to buy his Levis shoe &&a hair cut at aeon's place . The sales man of Levis said my butterfly very nice . haha ! Chit chat with Aeon while Dex cut his hair . Then left to eat dinner with dex &&his friend . talk cock awhile then Home Sweet Home !
07 Aug , Went for dinner with my grandfather . at a chinese resturant at Far east square . The place is super nice la ! lols . the photos will my jiu jiu . so will update once i get my hands on it . haha .
Ate Fuzhou food . not bad . but i ate very little &&i was super hungry ! super ex la the resturant , cost $100++ ! then the adults left for home . me &&wei head to downtown to Calvins chalet to collect krunk tickets . met up with Darling for awhile before we head down to boat quay .
&&I SAW CHARLES && BENJAMIN ONG . the dumb dumb who ate miny's ( my dog ) treats . LMAO ! drink at double c then moved over to no.s drank until5++ weiquan the maboh . so we went home to zzz ...
08Aug . Krunk2 . My first time going Sentosa without weenah , so me &&wei cried on the cab .
Overall i enjoyed myself with Darling . My Darling look so handsome that night ! haha . Love him soooooooooo much . but at the end some YE bitch start to scold Wei &&Evan . i super dulan when she scolded me too . BUT , i shall not go into details .
Went to Gerald House for awhile then breakfast with Dex && Friends . Then home sweet home .
09Aug , Was suppose to watch fireworks but Darling couldnt wake up . Hais , nevermind . Darling went to Fisherman to drink , was tispy . Whack some malay ppl because they stared at him . This is one reason why i hate gangsters . arghs .. dont know la .

I'm feeling EMO, I dont know why . Mayb i think too much . like as if we've got nothing to say . Hais , Forget it . Emoing is confirm with me now . My Tears are already dried up Yet the pain is still getting stronger .

Photos !

outside vivo

The parents Gossiping in the carpark .

Love my cousins !

Cute Right ! Lolipop !

I'm going to Zouk later on . Hais . Emo my night away , Good Night Folks !

Emo-ing .

2007-08-02T10:52:00.000-07:00

Blahs blahs . i changed my blog picture ! haha . nice anot ? i know its nice la .. haha .

Went for Xray ytd for my feet , looking back on how i hurt it by kicking yaya's leg . its meant to be . I kick him && i fractured my foot . :(

After my Xray , i called evan to meet her at causeway point for lunch/dinner . didnt expected that my xray would take less than half an hour lor . lols .

Bought my nose studs , blusher &&changed my bag stuffs. Then walked alone aimlessly in cwp for 45mins before Darling came to meet me . While waiting for evan to come Darling &&me walked around to search for somewhere nice to eat .

Finally she came , Darling find her super funny in her school uniform . Lols ! :D

we settled down at pizza hut , ate our pizza &&evan starts her nonsense after she's full . haha . Went home around 8+ , Darling went back to pasir ris . played psp till late then zzzz ..

Anyway things between Weenah &&us is over . We are alright already people . Though things may be different . We'll try to work it out , wonnt we ? :) Dont worry ppl !

26 July 2007

Happy First Month !

Darling &&me meet up at Cine . Actually wanted to eat Billy bombers at The Cathay de . But was too late le . We end up at Pasta Mania . YumYumYummy !

watched Alone . Darling &&me was like SOOO scared la ! lols . &&the cinema had a BAD smell ! everyone came in with their hands covering their noses . Funny la !

Forced Darling to take photos with me &&he deleted all of them expect one ! i liked it alot la . Dont know why he keep complaining that he looks bad in photos . Idiot . lols . Went home after the movie . Darling stayed over at my place . Wee ! xD

Darling , Happy First month ! I Love You . &&like you said , we'll have uncountable more months to go . Loves ! :D

I want to do something with my hair sia ! Straighten it again or something . haha .
I just found out that i had split ends ! Oh Dumbfuck .

See Darling , You look good !

Update soon , Nights Folks , Nights Darling . Loves

2007-07-22T12:07:00.000-07:00

Yes , i'm back from 21st party . supposingly many is wondering how the party at fort canning went .. but , things have changed so much . location changed to DXO in the last min . things went wrong , but seriously la . nick , this party you do things really not nice . that's all i have to say .

Nightwatch , a great team , good company . end up like this , Evan , Wei &&Me felt so sad . at the point when you guys were shouting at each other , my heart ache . i cant say anything but to wish that you guys can still be friends . though not working together le , but still can be friends right . :)

6Desire9 @ DXO , 21 July . Many ad things happen that night , some i shall not mention . i managed to clear all my 30 tickets thanks to Evan & XiaoRui . Thanks alot . &&bombhair fuck that bomhair , Dont let me see him in clubs ever again . Watch out you fucktard . Fights all over the place , way or another connected to us again , worst still both side are our friends . Shall not go into details , whatever it was , that was a bad day . Sorry Freddie , your birthday didnt went that well . SORRY & HAPPY BIRTHDAY FREDDIE !

Well there are many things i would like to say to weenah && geric .
First to Weenah : i had never treated you as my dog , in my heart , you are my jie bai , my real sister , i did many things for you , i bought things for you , shared clothes with you , when you had no money i paid for your cab fare home , sold tickets so i can let you go in guestlist , tried my best to pei you everytime i had the time , never left you even when i was scolded by your mother , or even threaten by your brother . i stood by you all the way . when daryl left you , wesley mia you . and on your birthday , Geric made you cry . you came back chalet, i comfort you all the way . & you're saying that i treated you as my dog ? After so many years of sistership , now you say this kind of things . what are you thinking of ? the last msg , read carefully , i clearly stated that i was sorry . " i was too harsh with words ytd . i apologise . " or somethings like this . i clearly apologised to you . what do you mean now by saying all that on your profile ? the only thing that i make desisions for you was only Geric & You . nothing else ! please go think of all the bad things he had once done to you . all the tears that he made your eyes fell ? i only wanted the best for you . All the cheats he dont behind your back . i never wanted to end our sistership , i was mearly asking you to make a choice . you rather choose Geric over us , our 4 years sistership , *phoof* you choose to end this , but its not too late yet . hope that our sistership will not end up like this .
&& to Geric : Please watch your attitude hor . you want us to accept you than you should show us a better attitude . not guai lan to us ok . JERK . nb . one more time you guai lan i will not give face de hor .

2007-07-18T13:39:00.000-07:00

Here are the details for the next Underage Club event ! Once again , proudly presented by NIGHTWATCH .

Ever wondered when you can party under the stars ?
Tired of partying in clubs ?
Get ready for the biggest OUT-OF-THE-CLUB PARTY of the year !
6Desire9 @ FortCanning ! 21st July 2007, Saturday
Door opens at 9PM
Presales @ $20 incl. of one drink .
Doorsales @ $22 incl. of one drink .
A PARTY NOT TO BE MISSED !

EVERYONE's gonna dress to impress .
WE are going against the flow and pick the MOST CASUAL DRESSED !
Hey, whats wrong with dressing casually ?
DARE TO BE DIFFERENT !
Let your WILDEST TEMPTATIONS come ALIVE !
The first 50 ladies in BIKINI will be able to enter for FREE .
&& the rest have PRIORITY QUEUES .
Girls, its time for you to show what you've got !
The SEXY body, with SALACIOUS curves .

GUESTS APPEARENCES BY PAUL TWOHILL & ADRIANO !

Do you think that you can hold your bladder well ?
Then come down and participate in our WATER DRINKING COMPETITION !
The person who drinks the most amount of water WINS !
Sounds easy doesnt it ?

EXCITING Drink Deals that makes you wanna go WOAH !
House pours @$10, 1 for 1.
Soft drinks @$5, 1 for 1.
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2007-07-18T12:55:00.000-07:00

Its been like a LONG LONG time since i last update la ! && Evan , YES I'VE BEEN OUT WITH MY DARLING ! haha . not all the time la . updates for recent events , lazy to go into details !
- 070707 , IT WAS A SUCCESS ! though my sellers disappoiont me with 0 ticket sales , i'm still proud that i cleared total of 52 tickets by myself . Without help ! WOOTS ! :DD
- 9th July , i accompanied Darling to changi hospital to check his hand . like OMG , there is like a BIG fracture la ! the bones are like one in one out lor . we waited like 3 - 4 hrs , like a long la ! && the nurse wrap a cast for Darling ! Was like fucking big la ! &&super funny ! he only fractured his hand but the nurse cast the whole arm . LMAO ! >.<
- 10th July , accompanied Darling to an outing with Irwin , Chester &&the rest cannot remember their names , ate Hong Kong Cafe at tampiness mall . Guess i was wrong , they're all nice ppl . after dinner , darling went home to sign his insurance things . went out to meet another group at Irwin's place for a lil drink &&some dvds . watch till 5+ Rode back to Darling's house . First time stayed over ! haha . went back the next afternoon .
- 11th July , Drinking at boat quay with gerald &&gang . had quite much fun ! haha . enjoy going pubbing with them sia . they all super cock de . LOL . right evan ? :)
- 14th July , Dao tong birthday . in the afternoon went to meet up with sophia , jowell , sinkeong , qin zhi ! Primary school gathering ! Wee . miss them so much . catched harry potter though i &&wei was like fucking late ! ate mos burger than went back home . evening went to Tong's bbq at teck whye gardens , MET HOWARD ! haha . cute fella . after that went to boat quay , was SUPER underdress la ! wtf . i was like wear tshirt and some very casual looking shorts . O.o!! didnt drink much , went back home . chat with Darling on the phone till 5++ then zzz ... HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAO TONG ! :)
- 17th July , Gerald Birthday ! Boat quay again ! but i went to catch a movie with Darling before i went down . wei &&i was trying our best to bake a cake for our ah bang gerald . was suppose to meet Darling at The Cathay at 9.15pm but i reached there only at 10.45pm. LMAO . Darling was like drenched cause of the fucking rain . :( watched harry potter AGAIN , cause i missed the front part the other time . Darling & me went down to Double C to meet them . Most of them maboh already . -.-" Gerald , Wei Jie , Simon , Wei = MABOHS ! Saw Jason huang , Kenneth tan && Glen-Boy ! HAHA ! was in for a short meeting for fort canning ! I'mma gonna be incharge of the bar ! wee uu weets .. 6 bar tenders gonna be under me . Shiok sia . hopefully they are handsome ! :x LMAO . after that they send the mabohs home , i &&Darling went to eat before we left for home . HAPPY BIRTHDAY BROTHER GERALD ! :)
- 18th July , Jason Birthday ! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASON , sorry cant celebrate with you . hope you have a great 18th birthday ! Take care &amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;&all the best ! :)

Looks like that's all that happen this week la . Please read the latest party update on my next post . PLEASE SUPPORT !!! haha . i'mma go dota already , suddenly like so addicted to it . lols . update soon ! Scroll Down for recent photo updates ya !

I Love Darling ! <33

I Love Darling Again :D
TeeHees :x

Its Lovely Evan & Me :) Tong's Bd

She Loves me ! I Love Her . Muacks ! :)

Night Folks !Nights Darling . Loves . :DD

2007-07-05T13:12:00.001-07:00

Stupid , chatting on the phone with darling . The idiot , playing dai di with his friends not listening to me . >:(

asshole . Hais , mom & dad was like quarreling about wei lor , dad is like not home yet la . fuck lor . its 4.14am now . wei is still at boat quay . that idiotic girl , one girl and 3 guys go drinking . she cant even drink well still want act one can drink ! dont know la . up to her lor , being stupid . -.-!!

Fuck man , i think i'm have gastrics again . cant blog much . O.o
saw his blog recently , i feel very very very guilty about it . hais . i dont know la , i just felt that i am very evil . i lost him as a friend , a elder brother . all i can say to him is sorry , my deepest apology . i hope that he wont be that sad anymore , stand up strong like a grownup , just like how you promised me that you will grow up ? remember ? face it like a man , move on , find someone better than who i am . i'm not that girl that you really like , i'm not that perfect after all . please dont because of our name , yuexuan & xueyuan . i know its really hard to find such names already , it might be fate that we have to meet , but it doesnt mean that we will be together . i didnt want to hurt you on purpose . i really didnt mean it . i want to see you smile . i know jrock is in your blood , i have nothing to say but yo wish you all the best & for you to grow up . Take care my dear friend , my dear brother . Kazuya Shawn Tay Xue Yuan . I'm sorry .

ps : i'm :D it's just that i cant admit .

anyway update pics for the last weekend , i just realised that i havent been clubbing for like 2 WHOLE WEEKS . God ! amazing laaaa . been to cine , after aeon dyed my hair everyone comment that i looked prettier ! HAHA ! cool la , i'm like sooo happy . but ryan pour cold water ! he say my face become rounder liaos . :(

DEAR FOLKS ! PLS SUPPORT ME ON 070707 OK?! its been a long time since i club ! so i veryyyy qi dai this party , hope everything will turn out well ! JIAYOU NIGHTWATCH !we'll work hard tgt ! && HAPPY ADVANCE TO KENNETH WONG ! Lets do this party right guys !

Alright , my gastrics arent doing very well , i shall go rest early . Before you leave ! Check out the photos ! haha , Nights ppl . i'll update soon . :p

Babe Weenah & Xiaoxuan outside cine :D

Evan , Me & Wei , Cine toilet . :))

Pretty anot ? lols !

Darling's & My shoe , At Yoshinoya

Nights Darling , Loves :D

2007-07-03T02:10:00.000-07:00

disappointment in weenah , i thought this time she will really be serious . yet again , i was wrong . i'm sorry juilim . every single time its the same . i've seen guys come and go by your side . good people you dont treasure , jerks , you cry for them . why is that so ? i dont know .
I'm totally disappointed . i have nothing to say anymore . VERY DISAPPOINTEDDDD .
hais ... :(

2007-06-30T02:39:00.000-07:00

Boring saturday , woke up at 2.46pm today . slept late last night cause of stupid darling . he always come my house pei me sleep got his niceeeeeee smell , hai me cannot sleep without that smell . LOL . but managed to sleep in the end .
Had pizza for lunch , actually got nothing much to blog about recently . was thinking of going on a diet soon , now watching christian's making of aint no other man mtv . her legs are fucking nice la , body also . fuck man , i want lose weight . my legs need to slim down . i should visit the gym next week . I WANT TO LOSE WEIGHT !
Aeon dye my hair for me well done aeon , Many said its nice . HAHA ! but sorry i was late , hai you fail your exam . O.o
After hair dying , i went down to white sands meet darling , had dinner . accompanied him to another dinner & then one funeral . so many gangsters la ! i dont like sia . felt super uncomfortable lor , darling keep laughing at me , say i everytime fierce like lioness , now like mouse . i really dont like what , not i scared . then finally all these things finish liaos , we left for cine . bought tickets for transformers , fucking nice la . 4 thumbs up . i want to watch again sia . VERY NICE ! all must go watch ! movie for 2 hrs 30 mins . finish at 3++ am . rode home on darling's bike . LALA LAND ! both of us was like so so so so tired already . hmmms .. Darling's face look so cute when he sleeps . i should have taken a photo of it . :D
If you didnt notice , i think everyone did la , my whole post is full of darling . LMAO . =DD
Its been like SOOOOOO LONG since i last saw evan ! miss her like siao liddat . haha . I MISS EVAN & WEENAH . school start i like so sad la . :( must meet later ! It's a saturday !
Going to ah gong house le . byebye . Love Darling . :))

2007-06-26T11:25:00.000-07:00

alright , its been like a LONG LONG time since i last updated . many things happen thruout the holidays . School reopen already , no more time to play , ITS TIME TO BUCK UP ON STUDIES ! short update about the holidays bahs ...
- 7,8,9 june , HAPPY BDAY ERIC ! great chalet we had , cried but the bonding is stronger already . 9 June , BROTHER's DAY ! thanks everyone . Brother's for life !
- 9th june night , School's out @ DXO . helped calvin cleared tickets . so many police , avalanch's party suck la . me & wei was BAN . slacked till 4 , kenneth came & brought me dexter , ziwei go eat . PRATA & HOME .
- 12 June , Frolic @ MOS , i & wei did modeling & then my fucking buyers all buy from other ppl . ASSHOLE ! but i did managed to clear at least 20 tickets . HAHA . total i & evan cleared 128 tickets . not bad at least . earn quite good . haha !
- 19 June , Sherk Party @ Attica , helped kenneth tan cleared around 10 tickets , left to catch a movie , fantastic 4 with jason & Darling . PRATA THEN HOME AGAIN .
- 21 June , Pure @ Attica , Evan & jeremy did modeling . things went well , but i didnt really enjoyed . went to e2max but was closed , so went kpool, chat till 6 & went home . HAPPY BDAY ANDY !
- 22 June , Jeremy Bday ! Steamboat ! had so much fun with our brothers , vennon , marcus , eric , kaisin , evan , wei , chris , adam , cheng yee , jason & me . HAPPY BDAY JEREMY !
- 23 June , Hollywood @ Redbar , only one word to say , disastarous . party went very wrong , had too much drinks . hyperven , went in hospital again . i regreted to keep holding on to the party . hais .. Sorry evan for makin you cry .
- 24 June , wei woke me up at 3 plus . jason was holding a gig at redbar that night , we went down to help out . got $50 and dinner , good deal so why not . helping night watch is like much more promising then help db lehs .
- 25 June , monday . school reopens . BORING ... went to town
- 26 June , Tuesday , Darling stayed at my place . ate dinner then he left . Miss my darling . :) Talking to darling on the phone while blogging , & darling is riding on the road ! so dangerous ... stupid boy . Ride carefully darling . :)
Good night folks . Yawns .... -.- zz

2007-06-05T13:08:00.001-07:00

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY ! I WENT CIRCUS FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE ~ ! :DDDDDDDDD
so many things happen lately la . hard to blog about it know . i shall just give a short breif ...
- 29 May , Vault @ Zouk , enjoyed myself much . earn money . Got into hospital -.- Dont ask me why .
- 30 May , Disharged , Went to Fort Canning . I SAW MARCUS , he's cute la . :x Alex & the ah bengs got into a fight . left for prata with the organisers , Home .
- 2 June , Fight in Pailivon , Fuck the CB BOUNCERS , was hurt , Cantoment Then hospital & Home again . t(".t)
- 3rd June , nick office , discuss statement . Fucked up bouncers look for trouble again . NB .
- i start helping out at chen ze's office ,
- Jobless , Cause i had too many mc's . Fuck Toko . i'm happier now . WAHAHA ~
i'm like bloodly happy la , finally i left the lj company . xDD was helping out for the party at st james , my first project ! quite busy planning stuffs . looking for models , & poof ! first thing that got in my head , Raynol & Anson . Woots , they agreed to be my models . SHIOK AH ! HAHA !!!
One fucking shocking news came to me , evan & wei's ear today , we are like on the news for the fight thingy la ! i was like mention inside of the news , & who the fuck is wilson ?! i dont even know him . Mr Zhang , we all dont know him , i dont even know why he would wanna report about this la , lucky dont have pictures of us in the newspaper . HEADLINES IN WAN BAO LOR . O.o & we're not dropping the case la , WE SHALL SUE THE FUCKIN BOUNCERS . wait and see guys .
Anyway , Thank you Jason for the tickets to the circus today . My first time to the circus ! i really enjoyed it ! I SAW CUTE KENNETH ! he forever smells so niceeee , i dont know why either . love his nice smell . :s he was working as a usher for the circus . watching wonderful performances with Jason , Charmine , Kenneth Wong , Kenneth Tan , Marcus , Glen , Evan , Wei & two other guys dont know their name . after that slack at downtown east with cute kenneth awhile , went to eat with the organisers . Went to serangoon to Sing K !
Next upcoming Big event , Eric's chalet . WE shall all enjoy there . Cant wait lor . WEEEEEEEEE , shall upload photos after sunday . :DDDDDD
hope you will not leave sg okay ?! Though you are annoying sometimes but your presence is important in all of our hearts ! :D
Update soon folks ! Nights ~

2007-05-27T18:43:00.000-07:00

its monday , right now i'm in the office . feeling damn tired . played psp till 2+ last night . Anyway , friday night company dinner , was quite fun . will upload pictures soon . after that went to party world with my colleagues . didnt really sing cause of my bad throat . left party world at 2.30++ they send me to cine to meet wei & gang , left for home with marcus & vennon .
Saturday afternoon went shopping ! woots . i spent $200 sia . O.o! was waiting for them all to come , so me & wei was playing at e2max till 10pm. LOL . fun sia ! left cine gg to meet the rest at herren , we saw jason . talked to him awhile & we left . at night went to cocoon bar with wei , evan , babe , jui , cute son sherman , tc , the two guys always forget their name , yaya & his new GF . who knew so suay , just went in not long we kena raid . fuck . guai lan to the ssb people . then we went off , suspected that is ppl in the bar report de . cause sherman too young . so lucky jason called us , so me evan & wei went to meet with jason & his gf , kenneth wong , kenneth rain & another guy , dont know how to spell his name . slacked till 5am , we all went home . they're quite fun to hang out with . :) enjoyed my day !
Sunday afternoon , went to vivo to shop . was feeling damn tired la ! at night watched pirates ! its a damn nice show la . 4 thumbs UP !! 4/5 stars . the sountrack super nice la ! damn it . i feel like watching again lor . :) haha , that's how my short weekend ended . :(
Dont know why , i feel this anger , this feeling of jealously ? or maybe felt cheated in someway or another . looking at him doesnt make me feel anything , but the way he hold another girl yet telling me something else not long ago . i feel frustrated , angry , hatred . the more i think about it the more angry i am , i actually believe he could , but i was wrong . yes , he's a despo . he cant survive without any girls . i'm fucking disappointed . why are guys that i know , always try to cheat my feelings , betray my trust , disappoint my expectations ? why are the people i meet & know forever bastards , hongster , cheater , chee hong & chee bye ? really have no more real good guys out there anymore ? wtf ?! guys can only blame their own kind for making girls lose trust in men . fucked up . & for him , i can only say our fate ends this way , you choose your path , you decided to end it this way . i shall not bother anymore . once a hongster forever a hongster . what i said was definetly true . Hais , suck out guys .

2007-05-25T00:27:00.000-07:00

YAY ! tonight is our company dinner , we had photo taking this morning . was quite fun ! i love my colleagues . though i hate the company la . all sg colleagues are ever so fun loving . Catherine , Doris , Jocelyn , Lilian , HuiBing , HuiXing , LeePing , Ms Chan , Stanley , Wilson , Lawrence , Jimmy & all the warehouse ppl . all these ppl make the office bright & fun . without them , toko will not survive for 35 years le . i thought today everyone wouldnt bother to dress up nicely . so i didnt really dress up la , when i reach office , ALL MAKE UP WEAR NICE NICE . LMAO . damn cute la they all . just for phototaking . lols .
now they sending lame emails to each other . haha , love working with them so much . Cute ppl .
Next week till june is like totally busy la , fully book liaos , 29th Vaunt@ZOUK , 30th FortCanning Party FEAT. AKON , 31thmay vesak day . 2nd june Scandalous , 7/8/9June Eric Bday Chalet , 12 June Frolic@MOS , 21st june Stjames free party . ARGHS . gg siao liaos . still gotta work & study too . no holidays for me . :(
But i will stilll enjoy it ! LOL .
After june , its time for me to MUG HARD . time to buck up on my studies . no more fooling around . cut down on pubbing & clubbing . :( hard to see my cute guy le . BUT NVM . i must achive my aim . POLY or NAFA ! JYJYJY ! :D
going off at 5 today :D then go home prepare for dinner le . update you about the dinner real soon . i'll try to take photos with colleagues & show you how cute they are . ^.^ BYE ~

2007-05-23T19:27:00.000-07:00

Damn Toko Singapore . fuck this lj company . wasnt suppose to be my job now seems to be mine . i thought all the way i'll be doing accounts , now fucking hell i got to do sales as well . nonsenseical ! this is crap , i got to do workload of 3 ppl , with no pay increase ! wth logic is this ? damn i'm like freaking piss with this lj company . after 3 months , i will surely go . $950 a month think what , alot of $ mehs ? i promise i will mug real hard & earn the pay that i deserve . Fuck you toko .
maybe i should complain to Minstry of Manpower . Abuse workers . still say what , if cannot finish your work nvm , can do OT . you think what , we singaporeans like you all jap nothing to do ah ? everyday work work only got high pay , less work . we still have studies , family everything . not like you all fucking japanese so no life ok ! sickening . losing money cut cost is your fault , over work us workers still dont want to increase our pay . i guess what all of them told me was right , toko is famous for giving low pays . Fuck toko . Fuck japanese . at least Yamamoto San & Yasuda San are nice ppl . Sack me for all i care . its your loss . 2 more months . 2 more months its bye to this fucking company . i know nothing about sales thingy . hais , fuck sia . if no contract i already leave liaos . ARGHS ! now want me to handle another 4 companys for sales .

Yasuda san,

I really cannot cope with it .
Since Yue xuan is free , why not pass to her now rather than pass to me than to her again ?

Rgds
arghs ! FREE YOUR FUCKING CB . TOKO IS A LJ COMPANY . DONT EVER WORK HERE !
Tonight tuition again , i caught the flu bug i shall skip tuition again . fucking hell piles of undone homework lor . work also stress study also stress . arghs ! be dog also better than being a human . Do i have a choice ? haiss .. Can i say no ? i cant .. fuck it .

2007-05-22T22:22:00.000-07:00

Wednesday afternoon , skies are dark , office is bloodly cold right now . hmms .. haven got much to do . again , printing invoices but today was little . so free . fell asleep in the office just now during morning , I DIDNT HAD MY COFFEE . lols . just finished lunch . these few days nobody msg me much . save bill :) nothing intresting happen lately . just cant wait for dinner to come . heard that this is the first time they had a company anni dinner in 35 years ! Catherine is leaving & they dont intend to hire another person ! expect us to do . fuck man , so little pay then still want us to do so much . no pay increase , workload increases ! what a stingy company ! after 3 months of fulfilling my contract its BYE BYE to toko. haha .
I must study hard after my work ends . This O's retake is my last chance . very important to me . Only 2 subjects ! i must JYJY ! cut down on clubbing and pubbings . burn more midnight oil !
was just out from short meeting . damn boring la . as if i know what they talking about . company is losing money . lols . crappy company . haven been talking for days . wish that things will turn better . hais ..
Today is my aaron kor's B'DAY . :) HAPPY BIRTHDAY KOR . :) LOVES xD

2007-05-21T06:45:00.000-07:00

New blogskin ! wahaha ~
today like a busy la , so many invoice printing non stop . anyway . tmr got tuition , piles of undone homework . damn .. T.T
WEEEEE . he talked to me just now . happy ! :DDD
i'm in a good mood sia . crazy .
i'm so lazy to blog right now . haha . too excited le .
xDD

2007-05-20T09:12:00.000-07:00

Some Pics from vivo
Cute underpants for teddybears. xD

Adam was done with slapping vennon , Now its marcus's turn . x) LMAO

tall version of us , the 13YO's ! jeremy , xuan , wei , marcus , adam & vennon . short of evan & eric .

2007-05-20T08:39:00.000-07:00

i'm like so lazy to blog this week . nothing much to write about . this week didnt went to cave ! instead , i was invited to a bbq party at bukit gombak there , a guy named howard which i didnt know . O.o royce said that the fella invited us , he said he seen us before . ERMS . i never seen him in my life ! O.O arghs . but nvm , we reached there around 12.30am , bbq was over . stay till 1.30pm . Me , wei , marcus , weenah , jui , alvin , lawerence , shawn & some girl that i really dont like went off . jui send weenah home , Bye ~ & the rest of them went off without even saying bye la . f rude .
off to marcus's place , met vennon , eric , xiang jie & evan ! they were drinking but i felt so tired , i went to sleep in vennon's bed . cute little shawn shawn was sleeping . x) dont worry , i didnt do anything to him . LOL ! went to eat 'breakfast' at 1+ went off at 2+ reached home around 3. took a quick bath , left for vivo with the 13one gang cause vennon want take his watch & marcus want to buy pants . x) had a stupid childish quarrel , dont want to talk about it ... enjoyed myself at vivo with jeremy , eric , vennon , marcus , evan , adam , wei . :) will upload some silly pics we took . LOL .
after that slacked at vivo till they missed last train so took cab home . me & evan went to look for jui they all at bar cocoon . thanks desmond who gave as a lift there . once reached jui gave me a big bomb , which cause my kuncles to become blue black now . but nvm . was feeling so stressed up . i almost crazy . nvm . jui bought me & evan hein , evan hates beer , so i had 2 . desmond came after that . he order 4 hein , 2 for me , means that i have 4. O.O i managed to finish it . bar close jui & friends went to west coast park , me evan & des went to another bar open by desmond's friend , quite ah beng place . dont like it . cave is better . LOL ! :DD

alright i'm off to audi le . tmr is monday again , friday is going to be my company's 35th year dinner . i cant wait ! nights folks . :D Loves . Misses x3

2007-05-13T05:49:00.001-07:00

happy mother's day ! boring saturday though . slept till 12.3opm ... i'm like super tired la ! -.-zzz

friday night , cave again . ladies night ! the boys were not there , only me wei evan & weenah . finished our chivas left there the other time , sang and played games , pass danny stuffs , met rickson , ting hui & sheng yong . moved over to dreams bar , drank somemore . play games & pool . danny came over , sang songs . left at 3++ gave him a goodbye hug . =( haha . waited for jui to come fetch weenah . me evan wei went home . saturday night , Crush @ Dxo . the party totally suck . i hate dxo , swear never to go there anymore ! fucked up head bouncer . ask him to go & die . Bastard . Dxo suck because of him ! asshole . didnt played much , too many black ppl & muds . jui came from powerhouse later on , talked to him & cheng ze about LSJ's stuff . went home with evan & cheng ze . reach home at 5.20am , then zzzzz ...

Sunday, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY ! to MOM & PORPOR & AH MAH . i love you guys ! without you guys there is no me ! woke up , went to drive ah mah & celine jie jie then went to wisma to eat din tai feng . LIKE SO MANY PPL LA . but damn nice the food . wooo . eat until super song . haha =DD went shopping for my D&D's clothes . FOUND IT . wahaha ! so happy . had a good chat with celiene jiejie . they're staying over at our place !

Wonder if he's feeling better already ?! o.o?? i hate Sundays ! Monday is coming . ARGHS !

2007-05-10T22:30:00.000-07:00

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2007-05-07T22:22:00.000-07:00

Last night , a lady asked me this question . " do you think this guy can sub danny ? " & my reply was less than 1 sec , no thoughts . i told her . No . no one else can ever replace him or be his sub . no one has what he has , no one can give me the memories that he once gave . nobody can replace his memories in my mind heart and soul . then she asked me again " huh ? than the cute guy how ? " i replied her just as fast again , " He ? he can give me a new start , new life with him . give me new memories , be a new person to me . i dont want anyone to be a sub . cause if i do , i only love danny but i'm using this guy . i want to love someone & be with that someone , i dont want him to be anyone's sub ." She smiled & told me good answer .

today i used all of my courage to talk to danny , telling him that i've let go . it was kinda hard . i made it look easy but it was kinda hard for me . but it's alright i believe all of you are proud of me right ! hmms .. anyway , thanks to danny for making me grow up . from now on you're just like an elder brother to me . thanks for all the things you've taught me . :) Thanks bro ! i shall move on like you told me to ..

i cant believe i'm blogging in the office right now ! its lunchbreak dudes . & i skipped luch today . mom pass me some of her flu that makes me lose wei kou . haha . alright i gotta go back to work le . -.- got many things gotta finish . my damn com is super lag ! tonight got tuition again ! i haven finished my homework ! damn , update soon .

Am miss cute guy now :)